my lyf

I Love You and Its Getting Worse.

2010-08-20T23:03:00.005+08:00

well,im feeling quite down lately.

but trying to put a strong front.im good in pretending you see.
Life for me is not getting any better.
This raya will not be the same anymore.
The fasting month too.
the house seems quieter than before.
i see no ray of light anymore.
in these coming month,
i have to prepare myself,
for both good & bad.

and in times like this,
i dont deny i need companies.
i need shoulder.
i need hugs.
but the problem w me is,
i wont ask.because i dont want people
to knw wats my problem,i dun want them to knw that
im actually not who i seems to be.
but there is this one person,i should say,i share my sorrows with.
almost all BUT not everything.
and at times,
i forget even people have their own problems.
and maybe im too depended.
thats my problem too,i depend on people too much.
because i have no one to depend on.
and i harbour too much hopes too.
that is also one of my flaws.
i wished for a beautiful day,where sun shines so bright and
everything seems so peaceful and nice..
but maybe all i can get
is a bright day with heavy downpour.

here comes my low self-esteem side now.
my eyes are stinging due to heavy downpour.
i guess sleep is the best remedy for me.
goodbye.

2010-08-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

i knw this blog seems so dead now.
and probably most of my readers think
it doesnt exist anymore.
well its ok,shall start all over again.

so,my 13 monthsary has past,so does my berfday.
Thanks to all many well-wishers in fb and also
who texted my hp. Sorry i didnt rply cos ppd low.hehe(:

thanks baby for the mickey and
treating me to the delicious foods..
thank you too for bringing me to clarke quay
and watch the beautiful night.

and abah..Thanks for the kenneth cole
watch(:
for my adeks n mak,its ok.(:
i dun mind pending :P

Well,working in USS is so great. Yeah,worth it too :D
Still no replies frm hotel,making me worried.
chiaos.

P.S: baby & i have our own kittens(:
the name is babycat&puma(:

happy anniversary my dearest baby

2010-07-03T23:05:00.004+08:00

happy anniversary to me.
Yeah,anniversary..i cant believe it myself
i've been this far,yet it feels as if we jus got attached yesterday.
i can still remember vividly,
all memories of us being together,
from friends,to lovers.
how i used to tease him,love to hold on to his
floorball stick,the moment i can sense his feelings from me,
those couple games(we were known as the biscuit couple fyi)
im glad i was able to help eu change eurself into a better person.
i didnt change eu,eu changed eurself,i only helped.

for the first time,i experienced the true meaning of love.
the figts,the sweets,the sacrifices,
basically we share our life together.
and im glad i found eu,my wishes upon the stars,
Came True (:

to my dearest baby,
im thankful that i met eu. it is all fate.
i mean i didnt expect to be in hospitality.
eu were encourage by nani to join hospitality.
and from nothing--frens--myheart
i enjoy every single time spent w eu.
every fights.every sweet moments.it jus the perfect recipe
for a relationship.
eur smile realy brightens up my day.
eu nver failed to be there for me, sacrifice some
of eur important things, whenever
im in a bad shape/worst situation.
i still remebered when eu literally left school
juslike that
with eur bag still in class,
to send me home as my was major swollen
from lens.
aww(:
there is still others,i have nver forgotten them.
thanks for making history in my life,
for being the longest bf ever
& THE BESTEST BF EVER(:
i hope that eu can be my last,i wanna grow old w eu.
and i hope i can be eur last too.
god-willing.
so looking forward to our celebration nxt week(:
iloveyoubaby.
i do.

2010-06-20T17:36:00.002+08:00

hi people.
well,its been quite a week for me.
on mon,had sc april intake interview. was okay.
can see some potential exco members.
after that,went to watch the karate kid w baby.
was an awesome and inspirational movie(:
worth it to watch.(:

the next day, stayed home..
cooked for my siblings too. its been quite a long time
since i cooked..because im very occupied
with school lately.
on wednesday,
baby and i had lunch together and
watch movie.(:
we watched the backup plan.
was fun. i love it when we spent time together.
on friday,
went to sentosa for sc bonding with april and jan intk
juniors.
was fun.and nice food too(:
had appreciation celebration too for mr lim.
after that, had dinner with suffy,mirah,bas,ayee,mike,
sue,farah,hisham n saiful.
was fun(: imissthem((:

on sat and today,
is such a boring day. did nothing.
*this happened last week.

my 11 monthsary

2010-06-11T00:31:00.003+08:00

hie there.
it was my 11 monthsary on the
fourth of june 2010.
i met him at clementi sports hall first since he had a match.
12-3.well,he won.he scored too(:
we celebrate it like we always did.
watch movies and eat eat eat.(:
we went to marina to catch the
SHREK THE FINAL CHAPTER 3D.
I gotta say it actually a nice movie but
the 3D is not really wat we expected.
we thgt its gonna be a REAL EXPRIENCE.
with its effects.but its was average.

anyways, after that we went to have our dinner at
Swensen's ((:
yumyumyum(:we took alot of pics(:

after dinner, we lepak at fountain of wealth while
eating our fav snack: auntie anne's caramel almond pretzel.
the very place where baby made a wish.
when we were jus friends(:
awww!
ok,enough!

so,its been a nightmare day for me.
i cant explain here cos its too personal.
i hope things can be better.
i dun wan any body interfere in our problems.
making it worst.
and theres no need for anyone to
try and break us apart.
and
i love you.

dear baby,
thank you very much
because eu have been there for me
thru thick and thin
all the way,by my side.
im sorry if my attitude sucks reently
bcos my life is getting worst and
out of hand.but i thank god,
and im glad eu didnt give up on me,
eu didnt ignore me,
instead eu help me.
eu also accompanied me that sumtimes,
i could forget al my miseries.
i guess thats why everyone needs a partner,
bcos in these hard times,
we are able to depend on them.and we are
able to see
if they help us thru or
not at all.
i love you baby.
i do.

2010-05-30T21:43:00.005+08:00

Life is getting tougher.
i thght it was going to end on that very day
when things were settled.
when its been decided that issues will be forgotten.
when i saw rays of affection came through.

little did i knw,it was just for a moment.
just like the sun.
it wont be too long before it sets.
mistakes were done.
someone's heart is shattered.
trust has vanished completely.
revengeful eyes appear.
Love has Gone.
Far Far away.
i have the feeling that
the worst storm
i am afraid of
might come anytime this year.

i miss baby.really much.
we didnt really spent alot of time this week.
his time is so occupied now
and sometimes,there's no room for me.
11 monthsary is coming.
i dun think so he is free to go out
and probably watch movies,eat together.

and some things have change.

i might be smiling on the outside...but..

2010-05-27T22:04:00.003+08:00

well,its been a negative week for me.
sometimes i feel that no one really understand me.
sometimes i am willing to do anything for anyone,
but they wun really do anythng for me in the end.
i used to believe
DO WHAT EU WANT OTHERS TO DO TO YOU.
but i dont know if that sentence is really true.

basically,
i was down since on mon night.
something happened and i remembered all the
heart-pain days i went thru.and it still hav not change yet.
the next day,had to go west campuses for proj.
tried my best to enjoy the day.trying hard to forget
all my worries.but it ended worser.
thats the day where i really felt
sad.damn sad.
sometimes i feel like
i jus wanna get away from everything.
but i cant.
i have to face it.
i still have to put up a strong front,
jus so they wun know how im feeling inside.
i have to smile,so that they think im okay.
i have to say Im Okay,so that they wun know
im actually not.
im afraid to confide in people abt matters i
might be sad with.
too afraid. i guess the best way might be
keeping it to myself and confide w the person
within me.thats the best solution i have
for now.

Sometimes
all a person needs
is a hand to hold
and
a heart
to understand.

stressed is not desserts for me this time round.

2010-05-23T01:24:00.003+08:00

like i said:
stressed is not my desserts this time round.
getting people's cooperation is never easy.
when they dont listen,they miss out what i said.
when asked for task,they asked me back
what to do.
i just hope this wont happen again.
praying hard.
anyhoots,been very busy lately.projects.ca.sc.dance.
im not tat active in sc bcos of my proj now.
but will not be for long,i hope.
had dance.some dancers are not cooperating.another problem.
im facing alot of issues now.
gosh!
we are left with a few more days to 2 rehearsal
then to performance at cck.thats short period of time.so,baby has always been there for me thru ups n downs.thnks baby.
thank eu for helping me out too.
all congrats for eur victory for the soccer match jus nw.
HAT TRICK KEPE((:
well,thats my baby.kalo pasal floorball,soccer,
he wun miss them.no matter if he is sick,injured,late or tired,
he will still attend.thats wat we call
PASSION(:
anw,we bought couple pendant thats rather hothipcoolhappening.
haha(: loveit!!

adios~

hey baby,i love eu.
thanks for being there when i nearly gave up.
and do well for eur sport ok(:
i believe eur capable of winning each game;insyaallah.
takecare&goodnightsayang.
ily(:

2010-05-05T02:01:00.002+08:00

this is a short post.
since im not sleeping yet,when its alredy 2am.
gosh~
been very busy..will start facebooking once im free.
and blogging too.

HAPPIE 10MONTHSARY BABYLOVE!!!
its been a while ride..
with tsunamis.
tornados.
yet,we're still surviving.
cos our love makes us strong(:
well, i got to admit eur one great guy
i ever met.
well..let's be together for as long as love is still
alive in our heart..
for as long as my heart still keeps beating in eu,
for as long as eur heart still keeps beating in me.
eu see,
relationship is never abt quantity,doesnt matter hw long eu have
been w the person.
its abt the quality time shared together,
that makes eu understand and realises each other's
feelings,flaws and one's desire in their heart(:

im still a long way to understand him more deep inside.
but one thing for sure,
i know my love for him is true,
and im very sure,
his love for me
is pure<3>

5 words i have fer eu(:

2010-04-18T23:23:00.003+08:00

hello dear darlinks. i knw this blog has not been updated lately. been very busy lately.
really damn busy..with sch.sc. im plainly tired.
im even tired to on my lappy.
so enough of whining.
here comes the updates((:
1st:
baby n i celebrte our nineMNTHSARY by
watching How to train eur dragon and gg to
henderson waves((:
my 1st time though.and it was fun.a great place to chill
relax((:
movie: 4/5
henderson waves: 4/5
baby: 6/5
hehe!ok,baby treat me well,eventhght he wasnt feeling well that day(:

recently,we went to WildWildWet.
actually,its more for kids.but the one attractions that really
made mour lungs shoot out was the slide up!!
wah! baby was being so NICE by making me be the FIRST to
experience it 1st HAND BY SITTING ON THE FRONT SEAT(:
AAWWWW! THANKS EH!
i freaked out.then we ride it again,this time,
baby on the front,well,
his face was really priceless! hahahahahahahha!
bubuwax!
enjoy-ed that day very much(:

so next:
april intake.wah! damn difficult compared to jan intake.
mouth very hard to open.really!
i dun wan to be ogl! puhleeeesss!

following:
event management.woah! its like really freaking me out.
no capital to start w.we hv to raise our own funds.
gosh! cmon darlinks! let's start now!

ending:
well,i will be leaving singapore this fri till mon(:
stay tune fer update((:

i was so damn bored.
so was exploring my lappy wen i
realised there saved convo w ppl i msn-ed
w.
so i was reading the othrs 1st,
then i read baby's(:
i realised how much we've been thru.since last year.
those laughters,
sadness,
what we talked abt tghthr..
i realised it been a very fruitful journey.
we learnt things abt ourselves.
we experienced things that we thght cud nvr happen to us.
well,
i always believe that
ITS NEVER ABT QUANTITY, ITS ALWAYS THE QUALITY.
it doesnt matter how long eu 've been w eur bf,
the quality time shared w each othr,
understanding them,
being ther fer one anthr thru ups and dwns,
that is what makes one relationship,
very priceless(:
ill be there for eu,
this 5 words i promise eu
wen eu breathe,i wanna be the air for eu,
ill be there fer eu(:

happie NineMnthsary baby

2010-04-04T00:52:00.007+08:00

hey darlinks.
well,its 4th April now.
its my
nineMnthsary(:

will talk bout it later.

so, yesterday was shopping day!!!
went to orchard.
zara n new look.
bought jeans.
went to forever 21. i love the tops
ther(:
will buy them(:
ate damn alot!
ended up the nite with
slacking at starbucks.
drank my fav:
chocolate chip cream frapuccino.
then,10+..bus-ed home.

happy 9thmonthsary baby.
well,its been a bumpy ride.
there were times i feel like strangling eu.
and so much more,
but it won change how much i love eu.
though our 9th monthsary didnt turn out well
in the beginning..
well,eu managed to put a smile on my face back again
and came to meet me .
i swear i didnt want to meet eu
today. yeah! i didnt.
but i thght, how long was i to behave this way,
i gave up and met eu.
and i swear though i have alot of wishes that
things could turned out the way i wanted it to be,
eur hug made me ferget all sadness
and i felt love-d. thats why i cried.
and one more thing,
i, shairah,agree that i am such a cry baby.
i might cry everytime im sad about something..
but that is jus the way i am. but
eventhgh im a cry baby,
im not to the xtend that i will argue and keep on crying till
two to three days.nope!

ok then! loveyou baby!

sometimes i think that
i was meant to experience all the things
i have experienced in my life...
just so i could be ready..
to love and to be loved by you<3>

happie berfdae ifah

2010-04-03T02:12:00.002+08:00

happie berfdae ifahh sayang(:
may all eur wishes come true.
hope eu face the life with strong heart and
may eu last long with eur sayang.(:
IM SURE she had lots of fun!
gg to BF house cos his mum prepared different kinds of
food specially for her..bought for her a
delicious chocolate cake(:
sweet eh!
gosh! its every GF dream to be treated that way<3

here is my old pic.. then and now(:

anyhoots, been hvng aches on my back and left arm fer 5 days nw.
pls get well soon..cos its painful when im doink the household work.

on Thurs, went out w dayahDARLING to visit
someone in the hosp. she is quite in a bad condition.
ill pray fer eur recovery okay(: after tat, met wawa and leila and we went karaoke!!!! haha! was fun((: !! gosh i miss damn badly!! meetupsoon!! mayb we can watch movie ((: !

oh yah! baby went to my crib on wed(:

hav aloads of fun chatting tghthr with NOISY FYRA!!
her mouth cannt shut! gosh! haha! we movie marathon..
THE NOTEBOOK AND EXORCISM OF EMILY ROSE. fun sey!
come again okay baby<3>

2010-03-31T00:19:00.005+08:00

hie there darlinks.
got to tell eu the truth:
im a rider now.
HAHA! eu wish!
so,its been a VERY BUSY week for me.
lets start wif latest news.
hmm,
preparation for april intake camp is ok..
getting really busy with it.
left with one week .
hope evrythng goes on smoothly.
but really worried for some juniors,
they dun seem to be suitable to
bcome the
Orientation Group Leaders.
i have to change some of them.
so,whats else..hmm.
my family is back to happy family again.
alhamdulillah.
hope it carries on and on .
ilovethismoment.

X-Qusite will be performing for FnB Dinner and Dance.
hope it goes well for me(:
and us(:

ever wondered how it feels like to be kissed
in this way(:
ive been carried in this way before.
but not yet kissed in this manner.
will try it ! hehe!

anyhoots,
my private getaway holiday
is 4thumbs up!
hehe!
iiillllooovveeeiiittt!!!
can we go again...
puhhlleeessseeee !
hehe
best!

hey there sayang..
that day was really fun(:
and i enjoyed it very much
wished could be longer..
aby love baby very much(:
hehe!
and and..
let's fight evil quarresl together
and live happily ever after.
make sure kiss me to
heal me when im hurt..
cos all i need
is a TRUE LOVE'S kiss<3>

2010-03-22T22:06:00.004+08:00

hie dear ones(:
So, some updates here.
MIRAH is officially in SC(:
great job mirah. eu did good in the pledge(:
its ok alrite(:
anyhoots,

went to cousin's bdae chalet.
it was ok(:
like always, i will stuff my tummy with
LOADS of
Sotong n prawn.
and ikan bakar is YUMMY!!

so, my sis hv asthma..
mumdad wants to reduce cat..
gosh! heartbroken sey..
):

anyhoots,having a holiday tmrw(:
yipeee!
so looking forward!
sexcited sey(:
read this sentence, it sounds so sexIng!
: i am sexting my boyfriend. consperm he sexcited abt what im gg to tell(:
haha.
Sexting is Texting lah.

klah,bubye darlinks.
p.s:
i miss eu
hidayah
leila
norain
wawa..
pls meetup soon yeah(:
muacks!

baby eu appeared jus like a dream to me

dear baby

2010-03-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

hello there.
watched DEAR JOHN w baby.
its a story full of meanings and soul.
but i wished the ending would be better.
but still eu do learnt something from it,
love, sacrifice.

anyhoots,well...
both my sis has a bf.
and BOTH have met their mum.
my third sis,
ifah, was even invited for lunch. gave baked cookies specially
frm her bf mum. a bear. almost perfect(:
i hope my day will come soon.
i wanna experienced the feeling..
gosh! insya allah.

jus had a BIG conversation w a dear love
she is really hurt n battered from her relationship.
gosh. was glad im able to help her,i hope so.
gave her my listening ear. evrything i could have given.
i hope she go thru evrything bravely. and get over it soon.

and baby(:
its holiday!!
let's have a vacation!
a private get-away(:
puh-leeseee(:
hehe!

and baby,
eu still owe aby ice-cream ):

love eu baby! muacks!

2010-03-11T23:29:00.007+08:00

WELL HELLO EVRYONE.ITS BEEN AGES EH!
my lappy is saved now. jus got discharged from the
ICU UNIT. took him FCUKING 1 month to repair! wat the heck.
WATEVER!
next,
alot to update.

for Vday n 7th monthsary,
i got special gifts and we went for movie outing and ate at swensens.
HAPPIEST DAY IN MY LIFE. I HAVE NEVER CELEBRATE
VALENTINES DAY BEFORE.
sweet and romantic surprise!
awww...(eu knw i knw baby)
the flowers, chocolates, couple bands, evrything,
was PERFECT THAT DAY.thank eu baby(:

for Italent competition,
got into semi final and didnt make it to the final.
thanks
to baby,apiq,shikin,atiqah,nabilah and carleen fer supporting. nt to forget shawal too. aft that, lepak at vivo. more photos in FB(:

wat else eh..hmm.
EXAM IS FINALLY OVER. BUHBYE YEAR ONE. HELLO YEAR 2 (:
AND AND
HAPPIE 8 MNTHSARY<3>
we have been thru alot to get to this far.
i am proud to say that this is by far the truest and lovest relationship i ever had in my life.
im glad i met eu. im sorry for my flaws.
im not perfect, but i hope i can be perfect for eu.
let's be strong together ok baby.
im sorry fer hurting eu tat very day.
i regret it. im truly sorry.
eur my baby, my life,
and ill make sure im always here fer eu.
and perhaps,
the reason eu smile each day.
i hope so(:
like i said before,
those arguments,made us closer and stronger fer each other.
aby love eu. muacks!

dear baby,
i wanna grow old with eu.

with love,
Aby.

BEACH FIESTA(:

2010-01-31T23:45:00.007+08:00

BEACH FIESTA

went to beach fiesta at sentosa.
with babylove.
last minute,got free tix.thanks aisah asia!!
so,met baby at outram park.
hehe!
otw,
i met a few Babies that were so damn cute.
i keep attracting their attention,but baby say they dun wan
to layan me!
hmph!
so,the moment reach sentosa,
we can feel the HEAT!
like LITERALLY!!
damn HOT!!
so,watched dance competition frm rembuction,dancefusion and sold out.
sold out was like the underdog,but they win 2nd place.1st dancfusion.3rd rembuction.
saw iqbal,mat and afew of blaze camp frens.
lunch there was not nice.
played games there! babylost to me..YAHOO!!!
bubuwax!!
aft that,
went honeystar-ed at palawan beach.
we mandi the laut.hehe~gerek!!
aft that,we ate sushi at bus-ed home.
iloveyou baby((:

and dayah,was hoping to meet eu ther.hehe!
its ok,we meet nxt time ok darlink,
imy!

to babylove,
congrats fer winning the 2nd place
in the IVP competiton.
eventhough its not wat eu dreamt for,
im sure its better to get sumthing,rather than nothing.
and steps to success,always begins with
series of hardships.
anw,
eu did tremendously great!
thats the best-est form i ever witnessed eu in.
and
eu create the nicest goal i ever seen there!!
swear!
its still etched in my mind.how nice it was.
from far,and tere the goal went,
in jus one shot!
whoosshh!!!
baby dun feel dis heartened.
eur still my baby champion!baby champy!!
hehe!cute!!hugs!muacks!!
go no 16!!go rashid!go my dearst babylove!
iloveyou ,
very much,
too much,
alot much,
just extremely much.
muacks!!

takecare dearies(:
ily!

2010-01-23T21:05:00.005+08:00

hello readers..
il give sum description wat had happened recently.
had DnD chalet at ALOHA bungalow..
it was awesome!!
im one of te best dressed(:
im a emokid school girl since the dress code has to be
BACK TO SCHOOL.
it was awesome(:

Next,
baby is an awesome make-up artist!!serious!!
hehe!he apply make up on my face,
and it wasperfect..the eyeliner,the mascara..blusher..perfection(:

hehe..enough of the crazy and nice photos(:
so,im in the Italent competition.
audidtions will be on 6 Feb.first time in dancing..
it has always been my dream to atleast dance on the stage once.
it doesnt matter if i win or loose,as long as i accomplish that dream,
will be very glad(:
so,support me ok(:

Babylove's final floorball match will be tomorow..
against RP!!the final match of his dream..
and ill support him.
baby,
remember what i told eu.
do eur very best.give eur very best.
i know eu can do it.
for one night only,jus give all eu've got!eur very best!
cos this is the final match eu always wanted.so show evryone that
ITE Floorballers are the best(:
work as a team(:
iloveyou baby.
and ill always support no matter what situation.
and baby,no matter what ever happens,
remember,
eur my champion(:
my babylove(:

thats all dearies(:
bubye(:
ily((:
P.S: IMISSYOU LEILA,HIDAYAH,NORAIN(:

because unexpected things always happen.

2010-01-10T22:53:00.002+08:00

i remembered telling quite a few ppl
that
UNEXPECTED THINGS ALWAYS HAPPENS.SO NVR EXPECT ANYTHING.
well,i have proven it right again,but this time,in a negative way.its a negative issue.and im feelink fcuking down,shattered,hurt-ed,disappointed,all feelings that can describe my agony and pain,
tat is wat im feeling now.
trust are betrayed.i nvr trust that person again.i can nvr love that person,the way i used to love that person.evrything has changed nw.its different and ill be expecting more bad probs im really emotionally unstable rite now.one min,ill be happy,anthr min,ill be crying.luckily,i have my babylove and frens tat are no doubt,who always are there for me.babylove has been very understanding and helpful,being there each time im feeling down,and wen i needed someone badly,eventhght i might ask him last min.
baby,i wanna say im very blessed and grateful to have eu.i realy am.but im loving eu too much,that im scared of losing eu.im scared that smthng bad will happen to our relationship.im scared.terribly scared.however baby,
jus bear in mind,there is no hands i would want to hold,other than eurs,no eyes i would wanna gaze other than eurs,no lips i would wanna kiss othr than eurs,no body i would wanna hug,other than eurs, and no heart i would wanna keep,other than eurs.
baby,i love you.

happie 6thmnthsary babylove/baby belenger

2010-01-07T00:12:00.005+08:00

HAPPIE 6THMNTHSARY BABYLOVE!!!
we turn six month on fourthJANUARY2010..
time passes by so fast,
that i didnt realise we are able to make it this far.
thanks baby.

first of all:
i would like to apologise to mohamad rahshid
for what happened on that day.
im sure othr guys wud hav left or will scold me
if they were in eur position.
im really sorry,it wasnt intentional.
i hate myself that day.
to see wat i did to eu.
i felt bad.
im sorry baby.ill makesure things like this wont happen again.
):

anyhoots:
happie anniversary babylove.
thank you for lving me.
fer accepting me in eur life.
for being my heart throb.
thank you fer being
my umbrella-ella-ella-eh-eh-eh
wenever im facing a storm.
lending eur shoulder fer me to cry on wen
nobody was there.
THANKS YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
ILOVEYOU
WITH ALL MY HEART.
so,please dun hurt this heart of mine,
whic was bruised with heartbreaks before.
bubye darla-s/
ilveyou

2010-01-02T22:09:00.003+08:00

happy new year:
2010

well..like some of eu know..
it wasnt a good start for me in welcoming the 2010
due to major problems tat can lead
to an end of my life long happiness.
however,glad it has been solved by 12pm
on 1st jan 2010,before that ring bells.
jus like a rainbow,after the worst storm.
anyhoots.
lets start with wat happend in 2009:
the bad ones:

the death of my dearest cat,Tiger.
the death of my aunt cum grandmum.
the death of michael jackson
the death of singer from rabbani
and more deaths.
financial crisis
family n relatives disagreement
bad hari raya
worst prob i ever

the good ones:

got into my 1st choice course.
made quite a number of awesome frens.
blessed with my babylove
the general secretary of SC
family bond grew stronger

well,my bad ones outnumbered the good ones.
which= very bad year.
therefore,i hope this year,2010,will
be a fantastic year and a fuitful one.
so heres my
2010 resolution:

i want to achieve better grades and get 4 points for my result
not to sleep in class anymore
be a better daughter,sister,fren,lover and human
to not hurt my babylove feelings and insya allah,stay together with him and grow old with him + shower him with love(:
to be a better general secretary
save money$$$
love my love ones till eternity (:

well,i wish a prosperous new year to evryone.
may its a blessing year for all of u.
to my dear darlinks,
i miss eu(: ill try to be a better fren.who do care about eu and be there
for eu wenever eu need me.iloveyou guys.always(:
to babylove:
i love you very much.and somehow,i have the confidence in our relationship,
i want to grow old with eu,insya allah(:
sorry for all the words i said which hurts eu.
i will try to be a better abylove ((:

thats all dear darla-s.
iloveyou!
toodles!!

imagine goink out for almost one week : CRAZY!

2009-12-29T01:51:00.003+08:00

this is a short post peepals(:
jus a short description of how
FUN I HAD LATELY.!
firstly,
went to watch movie with babylove

aft
VERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERY
LONGLONGLONG TIME!
huhuhuhuh.
gosh,i missed him so much,
that i didnt wan to let go of my
clutch around him!
baby says my new haircut is cute((:
yay!!im SO loving it!
bubuwax!!
hehe.
aft that,the next day,
had a big supper at rasa rasa seafood restaurnt.
ate KETAM!!!!
woohoo!!yum yum!
the next day,went shopping at orchard..
bought clothes..bag..shoes!
fuyoo!!
i so cinta it!
hehe.
the following day also went shopping..
bought tops,dress,stationeries,perfume.
etc((:
fun lah sey shopping.
sumore the YES (year end sale)
is crazy!
phew!but im still not satisfied!i wan buy more.
but remember children..
mommy always say save eur money.but wat eu need not wat eu want.
haha.
so,baby went for 3days2nite camp.
miss him liao!
tsk!
sch gona start soon.
im damn FCUKING bs for jan orientation!
tsk!bear w it!its fer eur own good! ((:
baby,
i miss eu n always love eu.
and takecare
of eurself babylove.sorry for the things that i said
which hurt eur feelinks.
i jus love eu baby!
it jus happened(:
my west side story
bubye!iloveyou-s (:
psst psst: will update pics more and stories nxt post(:

a date lah sey!!and like mirah's saying: I HAVE 1OKG CHEEKS~

2009-12-21T23:22:00.006+08:00

A DATE WITH DAYAH DARLINK
MY SOULMATE

Ola darla -s
so,yestrday,
had a date with dayah darlink
we went to fareast plaza..somerset..bugis..marina..cthall..
haha!!
gerek and kekek lah sey!
miss her so much!
hehe
we bought dresses.
scarfs
lunch together at mcD
mcSPICY((:
wah,so lovink lovink it so much!
hehe!
i love the hair scarf i bought
!
i bought 2
1- ribbon
2- feather!! (va va voom)
then like wat other girls do went they meet,
we Gossips((:
LOL!
jus reminisce old memoirs
how evryone hv chnge nw
either to the goodside or baCKside!
LOL
so,really enjoyed that day.
BUT:
looking forward to our GIRLISH OUTING!!
HAHAH!
THERE'S A DRESS CODE FOR THAT OUTING OKAY((:

Baby said: pompuan!!kalo da kluar shopping ,tk ingat dunie.hp org call pon
TAK prasan!
hahah!
and i have this desire:
baby..nxt time, i want eu to meet dayah((:
hehe!
ok,sc stuff=freaking me out.
its ok.stay strong girl!go go go go!
and i crave for
SUSHI ):
very BAd )):
and look wat my baby says when i said i
look FCUKING CHUBBY IN MY 3RD PIC.

Thats all darla-s
im off-ing NOW
toodles!!
missyou darlinks.
iloveyou babylove!!!
hehe!!muacks!!!

2009-12-19T22:07:00.005+08:00

ola darla-s ((:
hehe.
so wat have i been upto lately..
hmm...latest news is:
i got my hair cut and rebonded it
and i love that my hair is back to its shape((:
i did it at jean yip @ ion.
its the best service i ever had!
seriously!
i really recommend eu to go ther if eu want to
hav eur hair cut or medi&pedi.anythng.
when i said i wanted to rebond,
he explain wat i shud do.i cant keep my long hair
cos its seriously very damaged.and he wants to cut it
and use my new grown hair and babyhair so that the result
will be better((:
i was reluctant at 1st,but to tink back,
i hav to get rid of my damaged hair,and my dad says it ok:
go fer new look((:
hah!
so te result: i reallyreally love it((:
baby loves it too.
dayahdarlink loves it too(:
so does my minahdarla jingle bell
and miradarla((:
heheh!
so,will be meeting dayahDarlink tmrw and go
fareast plaza((:
a date((:
hehe!
excited cos so oooooo long havent meet her(:
rindu i((:
hehe!
yesterday baby called,
and i sad sia!
hmph!
i said to baby words like
:kental! slenger!
and my mum scolded me ):
she say:
eur mouth ah!!dun be rude ok!
remember when eu were sick,
who sent eu home?
who picked up eur bag and brought eu to
the sick bay.he helped eu alot
so dun use rude words at him!
IN MY MIND,i was like
-MUM!why are getting angry for that??
i was jus joking.
and me n him always do that ):
sad sia me.
tsk!

baby,
i jus wanna say thank eu
fer calling me yesterday.
and gosh!i felt as if my heart was jumping out
of my chest wen i hear eur voice!
i really love it(:

thanks fer doing eur best(:
i knw eu are.
and baby,no matter wat problems come in between,
even if its so bad that i cried,
or even till eur hurt,
ill never stop loving eu.
cos i love eu,fer whoever eu are.
and tis obstacles are the things
that makes our rltnship better(:
and i really miss eu ):
its bee like 9 days we hvnt meet.
im looking forward to our nxt date(:
loveyou loads babylove((:
muackzzz!!!!!
P.S: im so gonna cubet eu!stay tuned!

and i miss you

2009-12-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

hie there..
wen to buy books fer my sec 4 sis in the morning.
then to the market
to cook lemak cili padi.
aft tat rest fer a while,
then off to dover.
aft the briefing,
me,nisa n atiqah went to bugis.
Tong Seng, and jalan jalan at bugis street and
iluma.
nthng caught my eye though.
got home,
and there goes again my mood.
feeling down lately.
so,nthng to do,
i re-read my past months posts.
and sumhow , i miss those times.
Times when eu know someone out there has a crush on eu.
he is doing his best to tackle eu.
no matter how long and late the night calls maybe,
he is willing to stay up jus to hear eur voice,
jus to talk to eu,
maybe learn our interests and get some idea on how to get eu.
if possible,
he would want to see eu evryday..
he wud want to msg eu evryime..
it doesnt matter if he is tired from his daily activities.
he wud wan to call eu evry night..
it doesnt matter he jus met eu like 3 hours ago.
he still wants to talk to eu,cos
sumhw,eur voice is like music to his ears.
but he also dunwan to make it too obvious.
and there comes one day,
wen eur entirely his.
he loves eu more than he was.
he adores eu more.
he protects eu more.
bt sumhow,
he is nt that enthu like before.
maybe he only msgs eu in the late afternoons or nights.
mayb he calls eu once evry week.month.
and i do ask my bro,why does almost all guys
do the same??
he said that,
guys will do anythng to get girl he wants.
but once he gets her,
he is assured that she is his.
and its no longer a need for him to
be very enthu like before
cos he is confident that his gf knows how much he loves her
even though he might not tell her tat evryday.
eventhough he might be more enthu in his sports
than his gf.
because guys knows tat their gf knows tat they love them.
and because they know that now,the girl they love is
safely secured in their hands.
yeah,i do agree,but to a certain extend.
eu see,
girls love attention from their love ones.
she will feel very insecure easily if he rarely contacts her.
she love attention very much tat she can cry if she dun get it.
girls Love late night calls.
and msgs cause these little things make a BIG impact to them.
breeding butterflies in the stomach.
feeling a gush a electricity in the heart.
this is what they love.
so,walking down memory lane,
i realised the differences from last time and tis time.
im nt saying my babylove rashid is a bad guy.
nope!swear!
but ther is always little differences from what they were before.
and it happens to almost all girls.
it do.
and it happens naturally.

thats all people.
tc!
iloveyou babylove.
and gosh!how i FCUKING MISS YOU SO MUCH
THAT I FEEL LIKE CRYING.
HUHUH!

Lets grow old together BABY!!

2009-12-14T00:53:00.003+08:00

hello darla-s
its like 0213am
and im still awake,msn-ing w babylove((:
talking about loads of things.
hehe!
so i told baby
tat i cant have a peaceful nite if i dun cntct him fer once a day.
cos,i tell eu,
i cant sleep yestday nite!
its really uncmfrtable ok!
my head was very heavy!
hehe
i had a bad dream.
how i wish i can have
A SWEET DREAM OR A BEAUTIFUL NIGHTMARE((:
ceywah!lagu sweetdreams nmpk!ye iyelah kan!
hehe
so,baby said this:
mayb we are so addicted to each othr that
we dun feel incomplete if we dun cntct aleast once a day!
aww!
and he said
babylove: i keep thinking of eu no matter wat i do. evrytime i do something,eu face will appear in my mind.
me: aww.really!so sweet.so,even wen eur in the toilet,eu tink of me??
( hehe)
rashid: in the toilet cnferm ah!wen im doing business,nthng to do,
conferm i will tink about eu(:
rashid: wokay!i tink the toilet part is EXTRA SWEET!hahah!
hehe

jus ended our convo.
and hell yeah!
its the TOP BEST CONVO WE HAD!
and baby!!
ILOVEYOU!
and eu know how much
i love you((:
lets grow old together baby!
yeah!

off to sleep nw!
takecare darla-s!
iloveyou darla-s!
iloveyou babylove,whole-heartedly.
P.S: MIRAH!!PHOTOS ARU UPLOADED KAT FB.WILL SEND EU
WEN EU ONLINE OK DARLA(:

hie new skin- AGAIN!

2009-12-13T01:27:00.003+08:00

Hie dearies.
so i just changed my blogskin.
and i love it,
120%
hehe!
yeah,so i jus wokeup,
do some household chores ,eat and sleep the whole day.
what a boring day today.
didnt talk much w baby today.
):
lol!its ok(: and i guess i miss you babylove.
and i want to ask eu about something.will ask eu tmrw.
anyhoots,
i want to meet my HONEYBUNCH OF DARLINKS SOON!
ok dayah.leila.wawa.
lets us plan and pleaseplease make it happen
oh allah!
hehe!
on the 10th of dec,
had class bbq.it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E(:
had games organised by HAFIZ&GANG(:
my team,mira&shairashid lah sey!
we CHAMPION EU NOE!
HEHE!
so,i tonn we them and babylove n nisaDarla.
told some GHOST STORIES.
gereks((:
so,will upload pics soon(:
stay tuned.
loveyou darla-s!
loveyou babylove!
and psst: my bro is out enjoying nw.lol!
and baby:
iloveyou.and i missyou.
i hope to hear a good reply when i ask eu bout tis. i really do.

2009-12-09T00:01:00.003+08:00

hello dearies.
so,its an AWESOME start of the week.
since im its holiday,
im the chef (:
i cooked chicken curry on mon,
and I can proudly say
i love it.my whole family love it,
including my dad who is really particular
n honest bout the taste of a dish.
woah!3 years of F&N is nt gone to waste.
so,tdy,i made asam pedas.
Fuyoooo!
its THUMBS UP again!my whole family love it,
untill the dish is like finish by 8pm.
hehe!my whole family ate more than 2 time!
wah!am i redy to be a great housewife later on
in life??OF COURSE(: i shall improve my cooking skills((:
so,gonna hv class BBQ on thurs.
gonna overnite ther.
hope evrything goes well.
we hve AMAZING RACE .
heheh!!and mirah!!!ARE EU OVERNITINK??
hmm,please ok!bawak haerull skali.mlm lepak.
hehe!GEREKS LARHS SEYS!
&
baby likes the name rodriguez.well,
i love the name REHAN QADRI((:
!!
and he lovcs it too(:
so,the whole night my mum distrub me bout rashid.
WELL,ill love him more each time eu disturb me bout him<3 style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">so,am i the chef again tomorow??hmm,
if yes,
myb ill cook AYAM MASAK MERAH,RENDANG OR LEMAK CILI PADI.
we will see(:
thats all then dearies.
to leila:
i saw at eur msn eur sick,wanted to msn,then eu offline redy,eu ok darla??
hidayah:
hey darla,how r eu??
any latest news?hope eur doing fine((:

ciaos dearies!
tc!
iloveyou dearies
n
BABYLOVE.
MUACKS!

baby,we're stuck with each other
stuck in love with each other

2009-12-07T00:25:00.005+08:00

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hello dear darlinks(:
so firstly,
HAPPIE BERFDAE TO MY DEAREST DARLINK:
NORAIN MANSOR!!
HEHE.
MAY EUR BLESSED W HAPPINESS
ALWAYS(: & IMISSYOU!

ANYHOOTS,
Went to watch
COUPLES RETREAT
at suntec city.its a great movie fer couples
to learn more about treasuring one another.
yes(:
and we went into idk wat ride,
its so FUN!!!we chose haunted mansion.
hehe!
thanks baby.
and AT LAST,
we ate FROLICKS(:

baby choose STRAWBERRY n i choose PEACH
cos no MANGO.
huhuhuhuhuhT_T
we sat infront of fountain of wealth.
alot of KECOH THINGS happened
and i made a wish at there(:
cos my baby made a wish there
and it came true((:
we also ate AUNT ANNE PRETZELS(:
aft tat ,we made a wish at a BIG BALLOON.
fer new year.
hehe.

then we MRT-ED home.
packed lah sey!!
haiyo!
then we had our dinner at RASA SEAFOOD RESTAURANT(:
aft tat we went to pasar malam and went home(:
ilovethat day(:
thanks baby fer the outing,fer everything(:
iloveyou baby!

happie 5mnth babylove<3

2009-12-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 5MNTHSARY BABYLOVE<3
i loveyou
so,
this time,he is the first person to wish me,
usually its me.hehe
and reading wat eu sent me at msn,
really makes my wanna cry out of happiness.
im happy that eu said eur cnfident tat our relationship can lasts long.
i hope so too.
insya allah.
im sorry fer e bad times,i made eu sad.

but its ok.
its ok tat we face bad times.
like eu said:
its da happier moments tat make a relationship enjoyable BUT its da problems in da relationship tat makes it intrezting

yeah,well said by my baby.
he is full of philosophies.
he went offline redy,and ask me to sleep too.
so,ill make a fast post nw.
baby,
iloveyou.
and i jus dont only love eu,mohamad rashid jalaluddin,
i love eu fer who eu are,what eu are and
everything about eu.
be it good or bad.
i knw,like eu said,
november has been our worst cos we hv
alot of bad moments.
but its ok.lets look forward to december
and make it better((:
i love you baby
alots.
please dont stop loving me,
jus keep loving me,
the way i love you loving me(:
aby love babylove(:

happy wedding anniversary fer mum/dad.& happy to me too,soon.

2009-12-03T23:34:00.005+08:00

hello dearies.
went out w family to celeb

mumdad wedding annni.
hehe~
watched twilight.well,i rate it 3 fer the movie
but 5.0/5.0 fer JAWDROPPING,MOUTHWATERING&EYE POPPING
BODY!hehe.jacob's body is like
really drop dead HOT!
hehe
so,TYPICAL SINGAPOREANS!push here and there went wan
to board the train to orchard,.
AS IF ITS E LAST TRAIN ON EARTH!
EUR GONNA DIE IF EU DUN BOARD THIS TRAIN!!
fcuk lah!
ANW,
wat els eh.hmm,
i miss gg to sch today.
miss babylove.
miss mirah darlink nisa my Minah,and rizal!
also, shafiq kental,shawal brother lurp,imran Mintak kene sepak!hehe!
cool eh nicks((:
enjoy e pics.!
P.S: i miss my babylove
jus like e desert miss the rain ):
hehe!

daging KAU! hehe.

2009-12-02T23:28:00.003+08:00

hello dearies.
well,havnt update blog fer quite a long time
ah.alrite then,
firstly,
i was a ICE BLEND maker on tues.hehe!
had fun.many love my HONEYDEW ICE BLEND.
well,wat can i say.like sumone told me,
: SAPE YG AJAR KO?AKU JGK.PASAL AKU LAH
KALO UAT SEDAP(:
yelah IMRAN(: thanks alot!
next:
im officially damn packed w SC stuff.january orientation
preparations is damn alot.
gosh!i hope i can get this thing done SMOOTHLY.
hmm,wat else.my bedmaking exam: 11 mins.
i grade myself: AVERAGE
i want to do better in the next term!
this time,i shall get: 5 mins
yeah!nthng is impossible.

next,hari raye haji
IM DAMN HAPPY
cos ATLEAST i can celebrate HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA
W BABYLOVE
eventhough i didnt get to celebrate fer HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
thanks baby fer making time,eventhgh eur e only malay guy.
and CONGRATES on being e champion fer floorball in the
mini tournament. (:
proud of eu.and pass eur prac cpatcpat ok(:

so,i bought new shoes and dresses n tights at orchard yesterday.hee!retail therapy<3 style="text-align: right; color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-weight: normal;">
babylove.
im sorry fer any of my wrongdoings
which might hurt eu.
if eur hurt,i feel hurt too ):
and baby,
dun be degil!pls pls wakeup and improve eur
attendance ok baby(:
i knw eu can:D
cume eu PEMALAS!hehehe!
dun stop pinching me and biting me
wen eur geram w me (:
cos this things make me love eu more(:
cos little things
gives a huge impact.
all e best fer eur prac.
miss me tmrw okay babylove.
hehe(:
iLOVEyou babylove,babyboy,babysayang,babyblessing.
iloveyou baby.i miss you baby.
my sunshine (:

i hope fer e better.

2009-11-24T23:45:00.005+08:00

hey there dearies.
hv a lot of things to update.
firstly,
i was e photographer fer the boys
ashaway/pilot pen football competition(idunrely know e actual name of e event)hehe!
anw,its was really great to watch them and othr team played.
cool.
our clementi team 2 didnt make it to final,
but they played very well.Hafiz's score fer
e free kick is really nice!
hehe
alistair too scored.cute!

baby played well too and like always,
he runs LIKE E WIND.
Aft dat,baby n i went to watch 2012.
i thght it was gg to be anthr typical
END OF THE WORLD movie,but it is not(:
its a movie filled w humanity and a rollercoaster ride.
i rate it 3.0-3.5 stars(:
next,i watched mirah's oyster boy performance w
leila dear.
mirah's nabilah's atiqah's acting is really superb.
nabilah shouted at me during her performance,
i felt shocked and wanted to cry.haha.
not to e extend of crying lah.
but she damn fierce.
anw,the bad thing bout that day is
I LOST MY 10 DLLRS!HUHUHUH T_T!
wat a moment to end my nite.

I hv to learn how to do minutes of meeting,which i alredy
have.its quite ok lah.
and im getting so tired that i tink it affects
myself,im getting more lethargic,my mood went haywired,
and its been a week,and my cough has not end,and my fever
keep coming n going.
i hv to be a strong girl.yes,i should.
ill try my best.
and my head felt heavy wen i want to go sch tdy.
hvng headache,keep coughing.and my body feel tired too.
totally no mood fer sch,
thght ill be fine,which turned out to be worse than i ever thght.
one moment im happy.anthr moment im sad.

im sorry baby bcos of my irritating and unpredictable attitude tdy.really am.i knw how eur feeling,but eu jus
dun wan to tell me.i knw.
and im srry fer that.
and pls listen to my advice baby.its fer eur own good.
and if eu realise,that is like i think,the first time
i am open to eu wen im not happy w something.
bcos eu told me to tell eu anything i feel and dun hide frm eu.
and i tink it wasnt that bad but wasnt that good either.
im afraid to be open again nw.
thats e reason why sometimes i dunwan to tell certain things.
but then,eu shud also tell me wat eu dunlike.
like eu said,its nt my life or eur life,
its our life.
and i knw like wat eu said,
i might cry over small things,
but tats jus who i am.
im sensitive twrds my dear ones.
jus like how i am w my bro,
my dad,
my mum,my sis,
and eu,my love.and i hope eu understand me and my heart.
im trying my best to be more open with eu,
and im sorry if e way im doing it,irritates eu sumhow.
idk how eu feel,so tell me n be honest baby.
iloveyou baby,
fer who eu are,
wat eu are,
evrything bout eu,
be it good or bad,
i still love eu<3

tats all then lovelies.
keep posted.ily!

i cant sleep

2009-11-19T01:55:00.003+08:00

i cant sleep.myb i had a long sleep
jus nw.
i dunno.my cough is so bad that i cant get a good nite sleep.
firstly,
i wud like to say that i missyou
siti nur hidayah,
leila alkaff,
jawaher bee,
norain mansor.

im sorry if im nt ther wen eu need me.
really am.
im really busy nw,and will be busier in e future.
i hope eu understand.i knw sumtimes,im jus being the worst fren,
nt knwing wats happening in eur life,and fer tat ,im srry again.
please bear in mind that,
eu darlinks hv NEVER BEEN FORGOTTEN.
serious shit.
and i hope eu guy stand strong ,wen facing
challenges in eur life.i wan eu to be strong.i believe in eu darlinks.
and leila,

i told eu once,and i will tell eu again.
EUR ONE STRONG LADY.PLEASE BE STRONG.WEAR EUR MIGHTY HEART
AND FACE CHALLENGES AHEAD W HEAD HELD HIGH.
dun cry n shw me eur weak.im damn worried.
to hidayah,

msn-ed w eu jus nw.
hehe.eur cute lah!
so,jus go with e flow.shw eur million dollar smile!
its damn gorgeous.hehe.dun tink negative too much.live life to e fullest
and remember,
ppl will love eu fer who eu are,
and nvr expect anyting because
UNEXPECTED THINGS WILL HAPPEN.
(:
to babylove,

im sorry in advance if i TERneglect eu in e future wen im busy(which i will makesure i wun,cos i jus cant stop think about eu evry min)
i missyou lah sey.didnt go sch tdy.
im SO SORRY I DIDNT TAKE MY MEDICINE
THIS MORNING.but i took it jus nw alrdy(:
hehe.good girl eh shai!of course!
so,i hope eur nt late fer sch tmrw.i really hope.
i guess eur in deep sleep,since eu went offline early tonite,
or myb eu went to meet eur frens.
im nt sure myself.
either way,evry nite i hope eur safe anywher eu are.
i dun wan anything bad to happen to eu.
really loveyou baby(:

thats all darlinks.ill try to sleep again,
since i've let out wats keep bothering me.
i loveyou.takecare(:

shopping SPREEEEEEEE!

2009-11-18T01:46:00.002+08:00

HELLO PPL!
its been an exciting weekends!
wokay~
on fri,very sentimental moment w the seniors
its e day im officially the
GENERAL SECRETARY
for SC.
so,wen e former one handed me the batch on stage,we cried
HUHUH T_T
very sad moment.
so here comes my BIG RESPONSIBILITY.
mus do my best.and i will be officially busy frm nw on.
so harap2 faham kwnkwn ku(:
SAT:
BIG DAY!
haha.ate pies ,chocolate cake,choc chip ice blended
at Starbucks,orchard.
aft tat we went to shopping!
haha.
bought dress,while my SISs bought shoes n ncklace.
aft tat,we ate at Swensens.
ate american cheeseburger pizza,and seafood pizza.
nutty mighty ice cream,chewy choco ice cream.i ate
smoked salmon baked rice,while e rest chose diff baked rice,fish n chips,
pasta.
wah!full like hell sia our tummy.
then SUNDAY:ORCHARD
my siblings n i got ourselves a new handphone
i of cos lah,SETIA PADE SONY ERICSSON
haha!
my sis bounght sony,the othr bought LG ICE CREAM hp.
my bro BOUGHT PS3!!GILER OR Wt.
haha.
then we ate KFC n popcorns!
ahaha!
ILOVEYOU DAD.
P.S:im still waiting fer my othr 2 gifts frm my dad.
heeh!
iloveyou!
alrite then,
gtg!its late!
goodnite ppl!
to babylove,
eu've been a great bf.
hehe!
iloveyou.
and pls pls dun be late fer school
AGAIN!
else,i will do wat i said! muahahah!
and thanks fer spending eur time w me,
sending me home frm west to east.
sumtimes i feel guilty if i see eu sleeping
cos eur tired.
sorry ok baby!
but i love to look at eu sleeping.
and e electric shock i will get.
haha!
so cute!
and nw i miss eu alredy ):
hehe.
iloveyoubabylove.
xoxoxoxoxo!

shisha!!

2009-11-10T23:14:00.003+08:00

heyo ladies n gentlemen
so,been very busy this week,
and will still cntinue,infact,
its only e beginning fer my hectic schedule
in the future.
well,life's being a bitch AGAIN
nw.
problems,one after another.
yeah,wats life w/o problems.
but to face many of them in a short period,
i feel that i wan to pull the trigger to my head.
and wen im facing these,
it'll be nice if ppl dun put on pressure to me.
and now,i jus receive bad news.
i really feel i wan to break down now.
gosh!
but i wunt.cos im trying to be a strong person
who can face problems w a mighty heart,
w or w/o anyone's help.
and yes,im doink it rite now.
i guess i wan to keep certain things to myself.
nt tat i dun wan to share bt,
im trying to ferget them ,
wenever im w my dears in HC,or w babylove,
cos they can make me happy wen ever im w them n makes
me ferget the probs i faced.
ok,enough of whining.
went to shisha on sunday.
sumhw very e last min.
REALLY Enjoyed that day!
seriously made me ferget my probs.
i've accomplished my wants .
now left one more thing:
CLUBBING!
haha.
will go one day.
and i told baby,i wun allow him to go
clubbing,unless im w him.
hehe!
if eu guys are thinking
IM A GOOD GIRL GONE BAD,
NOPE!IM NOT!
these are jus sum thing in life i wan to experience
wen im 18.jus fer e sake of experience.

watched mirah performed yesterday at BESTARI AWARD.
she is AWESOME.HEHE!
good job !
gonna be usherer for THURS'S CAREERFAIR.
then FRIDAY= BIG DAY =
STUDENT COUNCILL INVESTITURE DAY=
OFFICIALLY GENERAL SECRETARY=
A START OF SUMTHING NEW.
WISH ME LUCK GUYS.

hey babylove,
thanks fer being ther and tolerating my
favourite word "TAKDER PAPE.TAKDER PAPE"
thanks fer being so caring.
thanks fer evrything.
i really love eu.
sorry if sumtimes,
i do get on eur nerves,
makes eu wanna giveup ,
wen i irritate eu evrytime eu write,
which ends up being untidy.
sorry if sumtimes eu wish i wun
iritate eu jus e way i irritate eu evryday.
im writing all this cos i dunno if
eu do get irritated w me.
so if eu do,im sorry.then i wun do it .
p.s:I do enjoy doing those stuff to eu(:
iloveyou mohd rashid jalaluddin!

2009-11-04T01:47:00.003+08:00

hey baby.
COOL PIC EH?SAW IT AT RANDOM IN MY HP!HAHAH!
its 1.48am now.
i knw eu told me to sleep,
promise will sleep aft tis post okay ;P
So,
HAPPY FOURMONTHSARY BABYLOVE(:
indeed im happy its been tis long we're tghthr,
even though it my nt be as long..
but like wat fiqah once told,
haha!
its about quality,not quantity(:
i love you baby!
tis month has been a bit challenging month fer
me cos unwanted incident happens
which caused misunderstanding.
its also e first time i cried infrnt of eu.
but these are some little things
that makes us be more closer n understand each othr better.
and its also the most sweetest month.
hehe.
i rmembered e day eu gave me e flower infrnt of evryone.
hehe.blushink rite nw. ((:
the berfdae clbration at swensens.
and aloads of sweet events(:
thus,
i hope we cntinue to be happy w each othr,
instead more happy!
i believe in eu and us.
thats all then baby(:

iloveyou too much babylove<3>

2009-11-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

heylo ppl!
so a recap of yesterdy.
so,yestrdy was babylove's big match against
NYP!
i didnt ask leila along,scared she is not
in e right mood n dun wan to trouble her.
so,i planned to make a surprise
fer him.
tried to ask most of my classmates to come to
support,bt only handful was able to
attend,cos of time:its late.
bt its ok.
so i acted out w baby,saying i cant
come fer his match cos of sc.
(padehal padehal)
baby told me he disappointed abit jer wen i told him
im nt coming.i even acted out by showing my
sad face.imran n shawal also add to it!
haha!
I made A BANNER FER HIM.mirah nisa helped me.
wen we reached ther,baby saw us!haha!
FAST FORWARD!
I was the ONLY ONE who stood up and hold e banner.
mirah n nisa malu cos alot of guys ther!
haha.actly me too.bt i heck care!
ite got 2nd place.
its ok(:
its was a tough match!
baby fought w e captain of opponent team.
bt baby didnt do it first.
the funny thing is,
i supported him wen he fought!
haha.I SAID : EUR E BEST RASHID!
lol!
we enjoyed the game.THANKS SHIFA,MIRAH,NISA,SHAWAL N IMRAN
fer cmng down.
congrats ite!fer gg this far.eu guys a great indeed!
congrats baby!dun be disappointed.
its e first polite and eur alredy the 1st runnerup
!its a great accomplishment.
iloveyou(:
bubye darlinks!

a long post!

2009-11-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

hey people.
its been a long time since a post.
mirah mengamok!haha!
ok,
mon:
when to watch baby's floorball match with leila at RP.
he won and he scored(:
hehe!good!
against SP: 5-2
tues/weds:
nothing much.
ohh,first time i cried infront of baby.
cos of some misunderstanding.
but im glad the prob we had bcos of someone
is settled.(:
thurs:
BIG DAY!
MY PRESIDENTIAL INTERVIEW FOR STUDENT COUNCIL
RESULT:
IM THE NEW GENERAL SECRETARY FER 19TH BATCH OF
CLEMENTI SC.\
congrats eh(:
FRI:
went to baby's floorball match
draw w TP.
TOUGH fight,!bastard TP Players!
go whack my baby!
@#$#@%#@!!
Sat:
went to ain's sis's engagement ceremony.
very beautiful,and at last gt to meet ainlove(:
Sun:
went to do LFS Proj
w mirahlove(: n nisalove(:
had G-R-E-A-T FUN!
tired too!
then nw i realised i hv blog presentation tmrw.
n i hvnt done a thing!
damn!

to babylove,
ALL THE BEST FER TMRW FINAL MATCH!
GIVE EUR BEST ,GIVE IT ALL OUT COS
ITS THE FINAL.
DUN WASTE IT!
FOCUS AND GIVE EUR BEST,
IM SURE EU CAN DO IT(:
must score fer me.
haha!
if eu can ok((:
do it fer eur passion okay baby(:
cos i jus believe that eu can do it
as great it was during eur previous final match.
i love you always baby(:

2009-10-27T22:26:00.003+08:00

marina barrage picnic
w darlink dayah,leila n jawaher.
TOTALLY AWESOME!
MISS DAMN SOO MUCH!
GOSH!
talk bout our personal lifes,gossips and more.
i relly love tat day<3
to dayah,leila n wawa:

im sorry if im not always ther wenever eu need my help or sumone to tell eur probs w. i knw im nt being a good fren bt ill try my best to be ther fer all of eu iloveyou darlinks!

yesterday went to rashid's floorball match:
ITE WEST vs SP:
5-2
hahah!boohoo SP!
my baby scored(:
i love you babylove!
both of us are bz w our cca,so i hope it will be over soon(:

to babylove:
im sorry fer all e troubles i gave eu.
im trying my best to avoid it.and i hope eu
understand me.
i feel like crying n angry each time
i am treated that way by the PERSON
cos i feel i am bad,eventhgh i didnt do anythng
and
Ive told you before and i will tell eu again
that
IM ONLY IN LOVE WITH EU,MY BABY,
RASHID JALALUDDIN.
NOONE ELS.
so dun tink of me in any neg way.
tat will be enough justice fer me.
i hv ashley who always protect me ther.
so dun wry k sayang.if it still persists,
then eu can do wat eu want.

FREEDOM WITH HONESTY N
LOVE WITH TRUST
THATS all dear darlinks.
bubye& takecare(:

and i deep down
in my heart,
i wish there is onw way i can
show my love to eu baby.
and i wish
i dun hv to face
any problems right now
and i wish
eu are here beside me
cos im sick w
wat im facing rite now
and i wish
good things will
happen to me
strting from tomorow
and i wish
my wishes cum true.
):
fragile.

2009-10-21T23:13:00.004+08:00

helo dear darlinks
so,been a tiring day.
i kept sleepink all whole day tdy.i jus cant wake up
or stay up
serious!
but had fun playing games with mirah.we played tis game
wher from A-Z:
we hv to state names of movie.
so here's e funny part-

shai: F-Finding Nemo
mirah: erm,G-Great Wall of China
shai:oh,ok.erm,H-...(stopped by mirah)
mirah: woit!ko pernah pe tngk cite Great Wall of China?hahahahaah!!
shai: (awaken by her blurrness)OH!HAHAHAH!!

we did laugh alot.
rizal gave jokeS.
hehe!so,yesterday,baby say next to me.
he drew my hands.haha!cute ah eu!but dirty lah my hands
konon nye,tatoo lah tu.
so rashid drew me a watch at first.then mirah called me.

mirah: Shai!Atlast,since brape lame aku nk couple ring,atlast i get it from Haerull.
shai: WAT??WAH!nk tngk!!
mirah: ni!hahah!(a hand drwn ring on her finger)
shai: haha!baek pe.guess wat!babylove also got me suntink new.A NEW WATCH!
shai n mirah:LAUGHING!

and darlinks.!babylove sweet lah ystrday.ther was a sale of Cancer fndtn merchandise.they were selling flowers.

guess wat!BABYLOVE BOUGHT ME A FLOWER,CAME
TO MY PLACE,KNELT DOWN TO E FLOOR AND GAVE IT TO ME
!
i was literally meltink!serious shit!damn shy sia!
but he got me smitten all day long.till i slept.nono,till today.and always!
hehe

tdy went to imm to buy presents for my sister firah
and shikin.
funny lah.cut it short:bought shikin cute rainbow coloured stuffs & maggi mee
haha!

happie berfdae shikin n firah!may all eur wishes cum true and blessed
w happiness always!love eu!

and babylove won e floorball tournament,champion!
woohoo!iloveyou baby!indeed eur my great and superdeeduper babylove!
woohoo!baby scored hat trick fer e finals!
but got a grp of girls cheer up fer my baby!
huhuhuT_T .jealous sey.
i didnt get to support him.hais!
sape tu girls!!mintak kene remb sey,support tk ajak!
alamak!
baby!iloveyou!congrats tao!and i will always support eu,
eventhough im nt ther to really shout n support eu!
):

2009-10-18T23:16:00.003+08:00

hey dear people
this week was really damn tiring.
had SC duties at bukit batok n balestier campus.
had to be reporter n usher.
tiring job for usher.
guys in balestier,MY GOODNESS!
like nvr see girls before.
so,wasnt active in class fer about 3 to 4 days?
tis semester we hav 5 modules to learnt.
and i received a good news tis week.
therefore,i hv a new will.
hehe.
i will try my best not to sleep in class.
and to achieve 4 pointers!
i will do my best!
yes!
so,i guess i will be kinda bz w sc fer nw.
its ok.

its baby big day tmrw.he is having floorball tournament tmrw.
and havng soccer match too.
i hope he can perform well.
do eur best syg!
i believe in eu!will miss eu since eu wun bcumink
to sch tmrw ):
im addicted to beyonce song=sweet dream.
haha.kecoh ah!its stuck sey.
to babylove.
thanks fer understanding me all this while.
i admit i was scared to tell eu certain things that happened cos
i scared eu will leave me.
bt i knw eu trust me n i trust eu too.
i wun do stupid stuff .
and i dun need to do so
cos i alredy hv eu.i dunnid to waste my time
to entertain othr guys.
i jus wanna let eu knw i
i sincerely love you.only you.e only guy im
in love with.noone els.
period.
dun wry bout me.i can still takecare of myself n
i do draw out my own boundaries.
if things get over board,
then i will welcome eu to say n do wat eu want
to him.with both hands.hahah!

thats all dearies.
im off to bed nw.
&&&
i tink im starting to love jay sean's music.hehe!
anyhoots,
bubye!takecare!
iloveyou&
my babylove too!

yours sincerely,
shairashid

2009-10-13T00:21:00.004+08:00

helohelo darlinks.
me n babylove had bdae celebration
part TWO!
i wanted to eat ice cream,so badly
so baby promised to eat ice cream on mon!
then im coughing badly,and baby didnt allow me to
eat ice cream!
however,w much 50 cent pitiful face i gave him,
at last he allowed!yes ah!
and guessed wat!
it was e MOST SPECIAL NITE EVER!
i told baby not to pay cos it will be my bdae treat!

so we ordered curry chicken baked rice, firehouse berfdae ice cream
n newyork fries(idk if its e correct name)
then,wen we ordered it,
they said since we ordered berfdae ice cream fer rashid
which is celebrating his bdae,
THE ICE CREAM IS ON E HOUSE!
then i was so happy!like its all well planned fer us.
co-incidently.then they served it w a candle.
they asked if we want them to sing bdae song,
I IMMEDIATELY SAID YES.BABY WAS ALREDY PAISEH!He dun wan.
but i insisted!
THEN THEY SANG!AWW,I LOVE TAT MOMENT!
REALLY.TO E MAX!

i gave him 3 special feeds of icecream
happie 3 mnth
happie 18 bdae
iloveyou
and baby said thers one more thing i missed out
happie 100 days tghthr!
aww.really special nite!

to my baby,
happie 18th berfdae!
may eur blessed w happiness always.
tis bdae celebration has been goink smoothly
jus e way i wanted
and i hope eu love each moment spent fer eur special day
and e things i bought fer eu(:
eur indeed very lucky cos evrything has been very special
fer eur bdae.
infact,on eur bdae,
its eur big day-a match against e defending champions.
jus give all eur best,and nthng else will matters.
i believe eu can be eur best ther,yes!
so,go break a leg!
woohoo!

iloveyou baby!i DUN love any guys els othr than RASHID JALALUDIN!!!
happie berfdae sayang!
iloveyou darlinks.
takacare!
chious!

hapie advanced bdae my dear babylove!

2009-10-11T20:27:00.008+08:00

helohelo dear darlink
so yesterday did went as planned
baby TERsleep .
hehe!
i alredy strangled him fer doink tat!
hehe
so,very e kecoh ah.ask baby to reach eunos at 1pm,bt he left his house
at 1pm.LOL!
then he cab to my house,then we cab to eunos intchnge.
then sumthing silly happened!
I FERGET TO BRING MY EZLINK CARD!!!
HAHAHA!SORRY BABY!
then,we went back to my house.wasted rite the trip to eunos.TSKTSK!
im sure is BABYbelo.
so,we reached e cinema jus in time.
i specially reserved e directo's club sofa fer us(:
aww.gerek lah e sofa.very comfy.
like we're e boss ther!hehe.
ate nachos,and i dirtied baby face w cheese(:
aft tat,we had pastamania fer dinner.

baby chose marinara,i chose alfredo.
i took hours to choose wat to eat!(ok,fake!)
wat i meant was,it was quite a long time.
hehe,shai can nvr decide anythng fast.
aft tat,we sat by the fountain of wealth,and enjoyed e night breeze ther,and
e fountain.there were msgs dedicated to love ones.
aww(:
and i remember about wat baby did ther before we were attached.
wat he wished fer.so,it was a special nite
fer me.to be w eu in that very place(:
and thats wher i gave him two presents i bought fer him
:a leather wallet & adidas bottle
i hope eu love it.
but mus love me too.(more)!
haha!
and ther goes the nite after 16 days we hvnt met.
lol.sounds like a movie title.
anyhoots,
time passes by so fast,we felt tat tat nite is not enough fer us.
bt its ok,sch strting.
baby ,
stay tuned fer eur bdae wish ok(:

and baby!
mumdad disturbing me bout eu!
giving me boombastic questions!
help!hahahah!
stay tuned for e nxt post,
will be uploading babylve's pics and shairashid's
pics((:
alrite then dearies,
bubye.takecare((:
iloveyou darlinks.
and i love you babylove

yours sincerely,

shairashid

its saturday!

2009-10-09T22:34:00.003+08:00

hey ther darlinks
sorry fer late update
hehe!
so its been a tiring and terrible week.
on mon had SC meeting
aft tat meeting,my stomach felt diff.painful.
i thght it will be ok and i can manage it
its nt e pain wher eu wan to *pass out*
lol!
its damn painful.like squeezing eur tummy.
frm clementi mrt,i control but cant bear the pain and
i wanted to vomit,ash n shab help me out at redhill.
i was like a small kid,crying out loud saying
"i want to vomit..it painful..huhuhuT_T"
ther were some caring singaporeans
offered me help.
wanted to call e ambulance,
cos my face damn pale,i was perspiring like
i jus showered!
ash bought me water, and shab helped me alot.
accompanied me till daddylove
come dwn frm work all e way to redhill
jus to fetch me and cab me home,then he went back to work.
aww.ILOVEYOU DADDY!

so tomorrow im gg out w babylove
msg-ed him but still hvnt rply
i dun knw if its still on.
haiyo!

so heres some SC RAYA && HC RAYA pictures(: enjoy

hrs n mins later:
still no rply.
ok.
no comments.
off to do othr things nw
wish me luck tmrw.
(:
goodnite evryone
ily(:
ilovebabylove too.
but im sad nw!
bye!

2009-10-05T11:57:00.003+08:00

hello my deardear darlinks.
so,had an SC raya outing yesterday.
wen half way cos had to fllw parents to auntie house.
yesterday is my
HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY.
jus wanna say that i love you baby.
i love eur way of loving me,eur way of embracing me,
evrything.
i love eur way of understanding me.
the way eu makes me sulk-merajok
hehe
e way eu make my blood rushed evrytime
i feel eur breath.
im sorry if i ever hurt eu one way or anthr.
hehe.
and i love the msg eu gave me.
meltink!
i kept re-reading it..
and i smiled frm ear to ear,
gosh!imissyou damn much baby.
the past 3 months has been very wonderful.
nvr doubt my love fer eu,only eu.
hope we can see each othr tis sat.
get well soon baby.
go to e doc if it doesnt get any better.how i wish i was ther to takecare of eu.
mus eat eur medicine ok.

Eur the angel who I cherish so dearly in this heart of mine,
the one who makes my day brighter, by making my whole world shine.
eur a precious gift to me.
sometimes there jus arent words to describe the most amazing things in our life.
and when i cant f...ind the words to tell eu,
i want to show eu w evry looks,evry kiss,evry touch we share,
Eur the miracle who has made my life more beautiful than i can ever imagined.

iloveyou babylove.
happy 3 monthsary.
dun stop loving me(:

2009-10-03T02:42:00.003+08:00

hey people.
well,still wide awake nw.
im sleepy bt i really miss my syg.
and dun wry sayang,
im ok.eventhough i really wanted to go hari raya
w eu,
since its e 1st time i can couple w my bf
on hari raya,
and it cant come true,
its ok.
i understand why,i cant force either.
so,im ok.
i swear tis year raya is not fun at all.
at all.
and i wun be looking forward to raya e following years anymore.
and to know eur unwell,
gosh,made me xtra sad.
i jus miss eu damn much.
we didnt get to hang on the phone fer quite sumtimes.
haiz,life's a bitch now.
so deardear baby,
get well soon.take a rest.
dun overwork.
i hope wat i plan fer tis sat can really happen.will
be waiting fer eur ans then.
gosh,i hate this part right now.

2009-10-02T22:54:00.003+08:00

helohelo evryone..
jus got back from camp.
it was nt as fun as i thought it wud be.
i only love certain games
and the campfire nite.
and and
one crazy news is
IMRAN WAS E CRAZIEST GUY I EVER KNOWN IN MY LIFE
HE was like a crazy Gay bitch dat day.
my goodness.
he danced like a guy from voguelicious.
he did more than 15 splits on the rocky ground of e campfire area!
my goodness.hw mus hv felt awful ltr tat nite.
imagine ah doink tht on rocks!
smre he did it again e nxt day on a bench.
i was stunned to see how he was tat nite.
he was in his craziest side that we HC
hav nvr witness before,i guess i was LUCKY enough then.
so,i like the campfire nite ONLY.haha.and wen ther was e dancefloor.
dancing w shab,haridz,ros,alimah,linus..heheh!
gerek .got e clubbing feelink.like usual lah,got ppl grinding all tat.
foods were EWWW!
so,jalan raya tmrw,i jus dunno whthr its still on or not.
noone update in FB.
if yes also,baby cant come,ther goes my chance to couplecouple
w him,nvm lah,i couple w sumone els.haha!
alalala,jokingjoking.
so,thers SC raya on sun,So maybe im gg.
then gg out fer raya w old frens is quite diffclt as they cant find time.
i hope we can find our way outthats all thenthen dearies.
and i missmiss my babybabylove.
we havenhven meet fer 9 days
and it wil continue.
alamakalamak,so e sadsad sey.
its ok.i hope nxt sat he free!!
els i chopchop him!
its ok then dearder darlinks.
i lovelove eu all.
and ilovelove my only guy,my dearest sayang,my babylove,my darling.
and my BABYSLENG HAVENT RPLY MY MSG!!
huhuhu T_T

oklah,bubye((:

shairashid040709

imissyoubadly

2009-09-25T00:54:00.003+08:00

hello dear darlinks.
mos pics at babylove hp.nt w me.i only hv tis one.
so,ysterday met babylove to watch movie.
we watched FD4.
and it sucks to e core.
i do admit i closed my eyes during e movie,
bt
nt bcos i was terrified,
bt i was disgusted by it.ppl body kena slashed into 4,
head kena chopped off.utterly nonsence.
guess wat?only i and babylove was in that WHOLE
theatre.Gerek or wat.we naughty eu know:go throw popcorns
all over e place.so messy.pity e aunty who gg to clean it.
tsktsktsk.put e blame on babylove ok.hehe!
aft tat,accompanied him to F1 thingy then at burger king w him
fiq,rohaizad and sufiyan.
zad kecoh sia.haha.funny guy.!
anyhoots,
to babylove,
imissyou.smre eu in F1,cnt msg/call eu long long.
): sad sey.
then aft eu finish ,i hv camp fer 4 days.
cnt contact agn. ):
wah!stay strong shai((:
its ok its alrite
shairah shairah fite fite fite!
yep.
to my dearest sayang darling babylove/babysleng
eur babybelo misses eu so much.
eat alot ok!eu need energy.
so.like always:ILOVEYOU<3
so,hope this raya outing will be a suceess.
to leila,wawa,hidayah:
letsplan fer our jalan raya((:

tats all dearies.
tc.ily.

yours sincerely,
shairashid

2009-09-23T02:11:00.002+08:00

im excited bout tomorow.
gonna meet babylove aka babysleng.
gonna watch a movie..
hehe!
hvnt met him fer like so many days.
wah!!holiday is really a bore to me..
i wan sch to reopen fast!
so..
Selamat hari raya to evryone.
maaf zahir batin
if i ever did any wrongs to eu ,
knowing or unknowingly,
please fergive me.
so,
1stly,
to my dear leila,
pls stand and be strong.
wat eur facing,i gotta admit,
i wun be able to face it..
i wun be strong enough to face it.
but i knw eur one strong girl i ever know.
eu cn face it w a mighty heart.
so pls be strong and take cntrl of eurself ok my dear la.
i promise ill be ther fer eu wenever eu wan me to.
im sorry i wasnt ther fer eu wen eu need me!all bcos of my HP!!
iloveyou leila.

to dayah,ain&wawa,
slamat hari raye.
maaf zahir batin.
sorry if i did any wrongs to eu ,knwing/unknwingly.
and i miss you girls alot!!!

to mirah!!
aku miss ko !!
miss cubet !ketawe!imitate jln org..
hehe!nk kol ko tapy mcm lom pasti ah.
haha.mcm paiseh pn ade
slamat hari raye,maaf zahir batin.
kalo terhurt ko,tercaci ko,sengaje/tak sengaje,
harap dimaafkan ye(:

to babylove aka babysleng,
slamat hariraye.maaf zahir batin.
kalo i terhurt eu/tercaci eu,sengaje/tk sengaje,
maafkan i k.
haha
and i love you!!

kk.
tats all dear darlinks.
tc ok.iloveyou(:
bubye(:

2009-09-17T03:02:00.000+08:00

god.help me feel better.
cos im not.
i wanna cry bt idk why.
and i need sumone

bt i jus dunno why im feelink like this.

2009-09-17T01:05:00.003+08:00

hello dear darlinks.
so,aft 9 days hvnt meet my babylove,
at last we met on mon.
yay~i love that day.
dun hv pics ah cos i didnt bring my hp.
baby and i was actually full aft eating
half of e food.
smre he ordered bbg sambal stingray
so,to avoid waste of food
we force ourselves to eat it untill finish.
aft tat,we go to bazaar geylang.
ntng new fer me.
then tired,
we lepak at paya lebar.
i really enjoyed the time spent w eu baby.
i never fail to smile when im w eu.
tat day realy cured my long fer eu.
hehe.
and i miss eu again now.
bt its ok.
so,hope to see eu soon.

-tmrw is my executive councilor interview.
pray hard that i get it ok darlink.
dear god, help me thru tis.
thats all.
tc loved one
ily and ilove my babylove.
bubye.

2009-09-12T23:36:00.003+08:00

havent meet my babylove fer 8 DAYS! WAN TO CRY ALREDY. miss him like hell.
So,told eu guys rite.
im sooo busy w my event,
ZOOMramadhan
IT went well.but unexpected things happened.
its ok.its a fruitful journey fer me.
im glad i execute my tasks well.
3 cheers fer shai.
*HIPHIP HOORAY HIPHIP HOORAY HIPHIP HOORAY*
ended arnd 11pm.wah,packed sia bus.
and i thght of babylove again.he is nvr absent frm my mind.
he keeps running in my mind,sumtimes i wonder,
isn't he tired of running?
heheh!!
so,exco interview agn nxt week.fer powerpoint bout myself.
wonderink how to do this.
hmm,may god help me through(:
AND I MISS
LEILA HIDAYAH AIN AND WAWA TOO!!
very much sey~
so,thats all then.
plannink to buke puase w my frens and babylove((:
hope it can happen(:

bubye darlinks.tc!
ily!!

baby, i really miss eu
i long to meet eu
i wonder how i will survive if eur in NS.
I SALUTE GFs whose BFs are in NS, or diff sch,
yet they still hold on.
i can feel the long fer eur love ones.
and its nt easy eh. hee!
its ok its alrite,shairah shairah fite fite fite!
hope we can buke same2 ok love(:
bubye,
ILOVEYOU&IMISSYOU((:

2009-09-07T22:54:00.004+08:00

hello dear darlinks
so been DAMN BUSY THIS WEEK!
and it will still cntinue till nxt week.
its ok,its alrite,shairah shairah fight fight fight.

so,had intel workshop last fri,we won
group challenge.very fun
we did adv for coca cola,
eu the M1 song that goes "urgh urgh"
we won 1st eu knw!woohoo!!
fun lah sey.when thers mirah n me,expect the unexpected ok"
win alot of stuffs(:
fiq win more prizes.
best of all,
BABYLOVE WON FREE LAPTOP(:
GEREK OR WAT.
HEHE
only no webcam ah((:
SO,being the ic of the zoom ramadhan is really worthwhile
i learnt how to do things b4 hand(:

wat els eh.babylove and fiq came down to study(:
and e expected happens=babylove didnt study.
instead he drew my hands.
webcamink .blah blah((:can eu see the hamster,riding the car(: so cute!

gonna miss eu babylove.
holiday sey!! T_T
not gonaa mit eu like almost evrydday
but its ok(:
imissyou
iloveyou
thats all then.
takecare dear darlinks(:
iloveyou all and my babylove too(:
yours sincerely,

shairashid040709

happie 2nd monthsary((:

2009-09-03T23:57:00.003+08:00

hello darlinks.
so been having a tiring day.
down w fever,flu and cough!irritatink flu!
so,did my presentatn.guess i turned out well.
love it.
so,get well soon rizal n ashley.
and babylove too(:
was chosen as the IC fer new SC event= ZOOM raya.
so called amazing race.
gonna put my best to prove i can do it.
had late study class w mdm saadiah.
and she treated us burger king.wah ,
damn full sia!!
shud hv seen shafiq's tummy.
so big like a baby who just eaten alot.
cute!
haha
SOOOO....

::HAPPY 2ND MONTHSARY TO SHAIRASHID::
i love eu more n more babylove
no doubt eur a blessing in my life
i really hav faith trust hope love in eu
and i still remember our believe in freedom w honesty
i still hold on to it
time flew by so fast that i jus feel
that we were jus attached yesterdy
cos evryday seems to be renew-ed w love frm eu
and its rejuvenating
i feel safe n warm w eu
so i need eu
jus continue the way eu loving me
and dun change
cos its perfect jus the way eu are.
and i long fer eu.
SEVEN DAYS HAVEN MEET EU! T_T

i love eu babylove
i miss eu sayang
i adore eu darlink
let us together define the word love.
be my last ok love
HAPPY 2ND MONTSARY((:
BUBYE&ILY!!

speechless.

2009-08-31T22:55:00.001+08:00

and im emotionally unstable rite now.
im packed w projects ,sc responsibility and studies.
nw he is adding my stress.
instead of giving me support.
all blames is put on me.
but its ok.im still strong.i can withstand it all.
cos i hv my sayangs n babylove giving me the support
i need.
but i just miss those times.
when he wud tell me his day when we went to the market.
wat happened.when he is cooking.wat happened at work.
his talks about football.but since he started it 1st,
i said sorry,bt still e same,
i wun do anythng more.i wun make e 1st move agn.
let time heals .
so,went to raffles place and cityhall yesterdy.break fast at macD.
then went to geylang.nothing much ther though.
no baju caught my eyes.guess wun be buyink anythng tis year.
i still hv alot frm e previous years((:
here some pictures(:
and im a certified student councillor alredy,haha.tryink my luck in exco.had
to write an essay.first try,MY ENGLISH SUCKS TO THE CORE!!
& asked help from BABYLOVE.then,VOILA!!ALMOST PERFECT ENTRY.
no mistakes at all.thanks sayang((:
if given e chance to be one,why not.if not,im still happy((:
takecare darlinks(:
ily(:
ilovebabylove too((:

alalalalalala..my darlinks(:

2009-08-23T00:33:00.006+08:00

did some webcamING with dearies.
my babylove too joined-but thru e phone.hehe

this is Mardea from HB((:
hello dear darlinks.
hehe
it been such a tremendous and fun week yet tiring week .

so,thanks to babylove fer the wonderful date,yummy ben&jerry,fuyoo popcorns,TOP SWEETEST charles&keith surprise and delicious supper.
zinnia fer the mirror.bestie fiq fer the cute stationery case.tingting fer the adorable lappy keyboard stickers and pink pen.

ashley n raymond fer the CUTEST MARIE DOLL and pink pouch.
mirah fer e AWW SO SWEET picturecard.those darlinks who wished me,really made my day(:
mum and dad fer the lappy,hp pouch and yummy katjes gummy candies.

and leila,dayah n wawa BDAE SURPRISE of chocolate cake and HUGE BDAE board.
ILOVE ALL OF YOU((:
THIS WAS WAT HAPPENED.
DARLINK DAYAH WANNA MEET ME,SO I WENT HALFWAY OF MY SCHEDULE
and plan to meet her at bedok.i guess i was too tired that i dozed off to tanah merah.
then kanchiong redy,i went out to take e opp train.then i find it weird.why ppl arond my hv briefcases.then it was the train to CHANGI AIRPORT.luckily i didnt board it .
then met dayah.she wan me accmpany her go macD.then i followed her.
UNEXPECTEDLY,I SAW WAWA N LEILA.THEY SANG BDAE SONG FER ME.
some unknown ppl in the macD also sang fer me.woah!i wanted to tear but was too overwhelmed n surprised that i kept smiling(PAISEH)
.i really love it sayangs.ilove you.i feel e break frm my packed life wen im w eu sayangs.

so i was really happy to see e look of mirah face wen she received e present specially frm SHAIRASHID(:
many THANKS TO DEAREST BABYLOVE FER CONTRIBUTING ALOT
TO IT((:
so.
had my student councillor installation.ATLAST,OFFICIALLY A STUDENT COUNCILLOR.
so,made an entry fer the EXECUTIVE COUNCILLOR.hope i get it(:
so im missing my babylove currently.
i miss late nite talks till very late nite.
now im really busy w proj and recovering myself frm fatigue.
he really wants me to sleep early.but i miss them.
hehe.i understnd its fer my own good.heheh!
so learning more about syg as days goes by.
and i promise ill be by eur side no matter what
and ill be there fer eu wen eu nid sumone to lean on.
so ngah puase,
gonna miss being close to eu.
but its ok.
as long as i can see eu,ill be very happy(:
and just to let eu knw,
its not e end of the world.
im here with you.takecare of eurself.anythng anytime ,call me.
eur my baby.and ill make sure im always here fer eu.
i need you
i want you
i adore you
i miss you
i cant stop thinking of you
i just love you(:

when eu need sumone,will be that one eu need?

2009-08-19T02:09:00.002+08:00

hey babylove.
i cant sleep now.im worried.
idk wat problem eur facing.
i jus cnt get a peace of mind.
sumtyms i feel as if i fail.
i failed to be the one eu wud wan to share eur probs with.
the shoulder eu need to lean on.
sumone to cry on.
i duno if eu knw that
I will always be here fer eu.
thru thick n thin
thru ups and downs
thru laughter and tears
idk if eu knw how much eu mean to me.
and if eur sad,i feel sad too.
we are one now.
we share our life together.and there shud not be anything to hide from
each othr.ther shud not be anythng we're
ashamed to talk about.
cos we love each othr and we care fer each othr.
and wen we share probs w each othr,it shows how much we
trust each othr and it tells how impt
we are to knw wats happening in eur life.cos im part of eur life too.
babylove,
i just wanna say i really loveyou.and ill always be here fer eu.
in times of sad or happiness.
ill always be e shoulder fer eu to lean on.
and eur pillow to cry on.
so please dun feel hesitate to talk to me .
cos if i knw eur hvng a prob,and eur nt sharing it w me,
it hurts me though i might seem okay.
thats all then love.
takecare of eurself.sumhow,i hope i can be the one ,the one person when eu need sumone .
that i wil be by eur side when tears get near eur eyes.
that someone whom eu called in e middle of e nite to confide.
the one to keep the rain from falling down in eur life.
the one that make eu strong and to lean on.
the one eu wud want to hold
when e world turn so cold.
and i promise.il be ther fer eu no matter what.

iloveyou babylove.

happie berfdae to me(:

2009-08-18T00:03:00.008+08:00

happie berfday to me.
happy sweet 18.date w babylove to celeb
my bdae is one of the best celeb i had in my life.
he treat my alot of foods!hahah!ben&jerry ice cream.movies.
POPCORNS!FOO!!and had supper at rasa rasa seafood restaurant.
these were enough as a gift fer me alredy.yet he told theres one more,
and i shud listen and do wat he ask me to do.so i agreed.
cut straight to e point
-he pull me into CHARLES&KEITH AND TOLD ME TO BUY WHAT
I WANT FROM THERE!
how do eu expect me react.oh gosh!i was reluctant yet he force me to w his sympathetic face.and i chose to buy wallet.
and i love it babylove.
that day was so beautiful,that i find it hard to believe
and scared to lose eu e nxt day.
really.

zinnia gave me mirror..so cute and she replaced my mirror
which broke yesterdy.
mirahrull gave me a photo card w my pics in it.its so damn sweet.
ILOVEIT.!!
dad n mum gv me a present which is e lappy im using.
dad bought my fav gummy candies and hp pouch.
ilove it too!
will update eu the pics of my present tmrw.
on fri,we had a grooming session aka makeover at ite simei.
and i love my hair.how i wish it cud last forever.
THATS all then dear darlinks.
tc&ily.
iloveyou babylove.

tired!!huhuuhuhuhuhuhT_T

2009-08-13T20:10:00.006+08:00

yo evrione((:
So sat at hum,doink nthng much.
had a great day messing arnd w mirah.bullyink her.
hahah!gerekkn mirah.
scribble on each othr books and pinching !hahah!
eeee!(shai 's way fer cute)geram!agh agh agh !(mirah's way fer cute)
cute mcm pantat babi!!
anyhoots,
yestrday had a really heavy headache,
cos i was sleepink in class,and i woke up by shock,
and tats wen my headache start.
had to stayed back fer 2 hours,for SC pledge prac.
and i slept again in e canteen.
Had a video made for SC.
popular eh.heheh!
carried on w SC prac.
my feet was aching and my head aching.
so,e moment reached home,bath then slept.
i slept w my boi and hansem

this is wat eu will hav to go thru to get e best of eurslf.
to get good GPA.
tmrw,hv grooming session at ite simei.
sat hav SC BONDING w othr campus.
sun a DATE w babylove to celebrate my bd.busy eh me?
hehe!

talking w RIZAL'S nonsence to e core topic yet funny to e core too,
wah!my tummy really cracked and laughed till teared sia.
he is really fun to be with.hahah!
so,
how hav my rltnship been doink?
im lovink him more as days goes by, i love our relationship.
i feel blessed.im happy wen ever im with him.
i feel warmth,and i nvr fail to smile.
do i miss him nw?yes,very much.
and im thinking.i hav to treasure evry moment i hv nw.
cos wen he go for NS,we will LOSE ALOOT of times being
together,but i will stay strong.atleast wen i dun mit him fer more than 5 days
ltr,times we had togthr can accompany me and before i realise,
its e day i cn alredy mit him((:

my berfday is coming.
and its unbelievable to see how
i've survive e big hit on my bd.
the hit tat rely made my heart extremely shattered to pieces.
almost not believink in love and guys.
one thing fer sure,i wun go fer chinese guys,no offence.
but i still love my chi girls(:
phew.
thank god i mit my babylove.
a gift from heaven.
and im blessed.
really.
thats all then dearies.
tc and ily(;
& loveyou babylove((:

Men always want to be a woman’s first love. Women have a more subtle instinct: What they like is to be a man’s last romance.

2009-08-09T22:39:00.003+08:00

happy national day singaporean((:
woohoo!still young eh,44 years old.
so,did ntng much at hum.
wokeup,do housewrk,makan,sleep then lappylove(:
i've been eating ALOT of CHOCOLATES now.
eat eat eat eat!im gonna be gmok!
and im cravink fer ICE-KACANG NOW!
BABY!!HELP ME!!
huhuhuhuh T_T !

i love this song vid.style n nice!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcs7Dv2vT90

so,i guess im stabilising my emotions now.
i think the hormones are changink as MY BERFDAY IS CUMING!!!
(MACAM PAHAM BUAL PSL HORMONES!)
so,my bd is cuming.
am i excited?
am i looking forward?
-i do,bt not really as much cos i learnt not to expect
things in life.
bt im curious how my day will be spend with my babylove((:
him spending his time with me specially fer my bd
will be the greatest gift i receive((:
1-2-3:Aww,So Sweett((: hehe.

so,thers is saying i just found out which goes like,
the reason why girls blog,is because of their boyfrends.
they love to talk bout their love.

so people,i hope eu dun get irritated when eu go to girls
blog,and they talk bout their love in their evry post.
heheh!
and im doink it too.dun be iritated ok.cos i jus
cnt stop doink it!
and i miss eu babylove.
i feel like i wan to sing eu the "OPPS,I MISS U" song right to eur ears((:
and hear eu giggle.and feel the ticklishness when eu whispers to my ears.because
I.....LLLLOOOVVVE IIITTTTT!!
me+eu(love)
=me+eu=shyrashid x love=Babyloves
hehe.im crazy and bored to e max nw.
im out of chocolates alrdy.
so,tis fri,will be cuming to ite simei,fer grooming session.
sat will hv flag day.sun,will go out w babylove.
tight eh my schedule.
&
i miss AIN,DAYAH,LEILA!!ALOTS!!
wuuooop!
k then.
takecare darlinks((:
ILY&IMY(:
ILOVEbabylove<3>
eur world,is my world
eur fight,is my fight
eur love,is my love
<3

2009-08-07T23:07:00.007+08:00

hello dear muffins. ALOTTT of things happened tis week.
damn busy.
gosh! so,1st of all..
babylove went to hv dinner w family . very funny.and i was bullied this time!!alamak!! still i love him<3
anyhoots,had SC pledge prac.damn tired.hope thers installation fer us.
sat fer my listenink test alredy. phew!! yesterday went to bugis w babylove.bought clothes fer shafiqBestie.
HAPPY BERFDAY SHAFIQ.
MAY EUR BLESSED W HAPPINESS ALWAYS((:
HOPE eu love e present we bought fer eu((:
then,spent the night eating KFC
then went to ESPLANADE to spent sum time ther.
i LOVE BABYLOVE'S company<3
iLOVEbabylove<3
alright then lovelies.
tc&live life to e fullest(:
ily!

and babylove,
smile like eu always do.
laugh like eu always do.
pinch like eu always do.
irritate like eu always do.
scream like eu always do.
and
LOVE like eu always do.
cos i LOVE like i always do.

im just too tired...

2009-08-04T22:50:00.005+08:00

hello my dear darlinks.
1st of all..
i would like to wish zinnia a happy 18th bd.may eu are blessed
with happiness always.
brought lappy to sch tdy and took some pics.
had auguts baby bd cake cutting day.the cake is yummy.thanks zizie.nice choice.
So,im very tired w my school life nw. i hv assignments to do.
sc pledge prac to attend.and cca isnt any better fer me.projects.and i live far frm sch.im really tired
too wakeup early aft a long day .im jus too tired.i sleep in class.
im nvr like tis in sec sch.i met the section head fer being late fer test.
i feel like i wanna cry nw.
today is my 1 month anniversary.
and my mood sucks to e core today.
im really stressed rite nw.i wanna break frm my life atleast one day.
i jus wan it.im too tired.i need a day of rest atleast.
oh gosh.im becoming more baby-ish as days goes by.abit cry.alamak.!!
IM JUST TOO TIRED W ALL THIS.

but its ok.i can handle it.bcos i knw i hv great frens who are always ther fer me.wenevr im sad or happy.i hv nvr felt left out w them. i share problems w them.they share feelings w me.they make me happy wen im sad.and because of them,im coming to sch.bcos of them,im staying strong.so friends,dun die on me.

and babylove,
happy 1mnth sary.
i love eu more.and
im understanding eurself as days goes by.
i do wish my dreams come true.
and if im making eu tired,
sending me home till the east,
im sory.
im sorry if i ever make eu feel -tive.
i knw eu will say its ok.
but i dunno why
im feelink bad today.very bad.
im sory if i hurt eu one way or anthr today.
its just nt me today.
again,
im sorry.
i just wanna say sory,even wen i did nothing.
im sorry.
tats all then dear darlinks.

and if eur stressed w life,
take break.eat chocolates.go retail therapy.it helps(:
takecare dearies.ily.
iloveyou babylove.
even wen i dun tell/show eu yesterday,today or tmrw,
i still love eu(:

bubye(:

2009-08-02T23:07:00.003+08:00

(:
hello my dear darlinks.
so..its been a HELL of a weekend.
i cut my hair.
it SUCKS BIG TIME.
i ask fer THINNING..
i get TRIMMING TO MAJOR SHORT "FER ME"
i told i WANT TO MAINTAIN THE LONG LENGTH.
SHE cut it SHORTER THAN IT WAS.
im being very paranoid.
im sad.
and i cried:(

hehe.
hope my hair grows back again FASTER.!!
SO..
i was a "team manager fer a day"
fer the gala-tikus team which consists of
rashid(babylove),imran,shafiq,shawal,nani,zaki.
they were REALLY good and fantastic.
i swear.
but luck was not on our side.
they were the 2nd runner-up.
and WE GET COMPLIMENTARY ICE-CREAM YOGHURT.
SO,aft tat we went milennia walk and get the ice-cream yoghurt.
AND ITS DAMN YUMMY!!!
woohoo..
the feeling of eating it w my dear darlinks,
its like.awwww,its sweet(:
its DAMN refreshink sey aft a tiring day(:

BUT STILL..
i HATE MY HAIR..
LOOKS LIKE ORG PENYAKIT.
SO HATE IT.
AND I WAN TO REWIND THE TIME.
I WAN MY PERMED HAIR BACK!!

AND I LOVE MY BABYLOVE.
but he is irrItating because
HE ASK ME TO SLEEP NOW COS
TMRW SCH AND HE DUN WAN ME
TO WAKE UP LATE FER SCH..

K THEN .
takecare & ily (:
iloveBABYLOVE TOO(:
bubye!

2009-07-31T00:42:00.003+08:00

hello dear darlinks(:
today is kinda unlcky yet lucky day fer me.
unlucky,cos i woke up late and reach sch 50mins late,and accidently
step on sumone's toes,(i was wearing heels)
so.today ther are two history made in my life.
1. i have to meet the section head fer being late fer my test,and im really scared to
see him.
2. its the first time a bring my boyfriend to mit my parents.
they are pleased w him.alot of funny things happend.
and mumdad acknowledged bout our rltnship.
i love eu syg.hope eu enjoyed meeting my parents(:
and ther will be futsal tournament tmrw.i will be gg alone.idk,who to accmpny me
bt its ok(:
so..
all the best to my friends which are in e futsal tournamnt.make me& HC proud((:
i wanna sleep nw.
goodnight darlinks(:
tc(:
babylove,
i love eu
n
i miss eu.
hope evrything went well fer eu(:
takecare syg(:

i love euu..

2009-07-28T00:41:00.003+08:00

here i am again.
goink to sleep soon.just finish talking on the phone.
and my HP is officially spoilt.
DAMN.life's gg to be difficult.
bt atleast i got spare one.
so,video called dayah love just nw.
we last met last week i think.went to marina barrage.
took alot of pic.its in FB.i miss her so damn much.
talked bout life's ups&downs.
really miss those times shared tghthr.
ily(:

and im trying to balance my life nw.
my happiness,my sadness ,my love.
So that i am able to face evry outcome
in life.
Sumtimes i dun knw if i REALLY show my love to my syg.
whether he knws that his the guy i only see in my eyes.
idk.hehe.but things are goink smoothly and steadily,
and im very blessed.thank god.i hope this is the wisdom behind evry
mishaps i faced.i do really hope(:
tc&bubye darlinks.
ily darlinks&BABYLOVE((:

and to my babylove
thanks fer making me smile.
thanks fer the silly-est jokes.
thanks fer the crapiest comment.
thanks fer the irritatinkness in eu.
thanks fer evry thing bout eu.
and lastly,
thanks fer loving me just the
way i love you
loving me(:

2009-07-26T01:46:00.003+08:00

so this is wen im alone in the bus.duuh!!this is my syg.but pic not clear)):

my heart was goink to drop anytime.nvr seen him kena attacked lke that b4.
i can still remmbr how harsh n rough it was.the scene is stuck in my head.
gosh!oh god,please save him frm any injuries~
to syg:idk why,but its kinda hard fer me to ferget the scene.myb
aft i sleep,ill be better.mus rest well k.especially the waist.kesian die.
anyhoots,
CONGRATS TO EU N THE MERAHANS FER WINNING THE FINAL MATCH.IT WAS A GREAT GAME((:
KEEP ON STRIVINK OK(:
BUBYE&TC LOVE

So wen home strght aft watching the match,
ate aunt anne,then wen home to sleep.
msn w nisa,kekek ah die!mintak kene remb!!
did nothng except fer nrmal routine.video

i video call w nisa.lol.
kekek ah!
so,tmrw hav to go to sentosa fer SC BONDING SESSION.
and i still hvnt slip tsk tsk!

SO,im goink to slip nw.
tc dear darlinks & my babylove.
bubye/ily\imy<3

LIFE AINT FULL OF CHANCES
ONLY OPPORTUNITIES.
&
aim fer the sky,
fer if eu fall,
atleast eu fall to the clouds((:

my baby,my champion :))

2009-07-19T23:42:00.003+08:00

hello my dear darlinks.
so,yesterday babylove had fllorball match.
the merahans(his team) won the match.
woohoo!!
then,today he had soccer tournament w my other fren
too which are imran and shafiq.
they were the champion.
shafiq scored hat-trick !wah,i wonder wher he get the
strength and power from???
lmao!
so,after tournament.he got anthr match.
again!haiyo,cnfrm tired to the max.
hahaha!
so he went fer the anthr soccer match,and guess wat.
he scored fer that again,and again he won !
woohoo!!
so,all the way,at home.i did nthng.
sleeping..
hehe..
and im damn hungry!!oh gosh.
im gonna sleep nw.
tmrw hav floorball training smre.
so,goodnight darlinks.
takecare&
iloveyou baby:))
(and imran,if eur readink this,i nw wat eu did!ahahahah!copyPaste per..LOL!!)
bubye!!
because to find a person
with a beautiful and sincere heart,
i had to go thru alot of heartpain
obstacles.
and i wan this to be just the one fer me.
:))
040709

a blessing behind the disasters happened :)

2009-07-19T05:03:00.003+08:00

hello evryone ther.

miss me?

well,as eu all can see,its obviously i had changed my blogskin.

trying to take a random one,yet nice.

i cant contrl my eyes anmre.

so gonna slip aft this.

to some who might hav known it,im
attached:)) .and i love my baby alot.
none of my ex is like him!and guess
wat.
MY PARENTS APPROVE OF ME BEING W
HIM.
DAD MET HIM IN BUS.funny lah.
hehe.he is the sweetest guy i ever been
with.he donot nid to
make werds very pretty.all he nid to do is
expressink it naturally and from his heart.
i really want to make him my
last!!
insya-allah~

So,im really very tired alredy.will update more as days goes by.

ilove you baby!

takecarea&bubye darlinks!!

love is about looking at an imperfect person,

perfectly fer eu:))

2009-07-06T09:16:00.005+08:00

hello my deardarlinks:))

well,sory didnt update.

my comp spoilt sey!mus buy new monitor!

so,im like using the sch's comp.

so,last thurs went out again.we went to sentosa:))

it was quite fun:)

alot of funny things happened!those who attend it,thanks eh.

so,let e picture do the talking:))

ok,fun sia:))

went home at around 930 pm.so,i reached home safe and sound cos

su0mone gentle soul out ther sent me home:))

1-2-3:AWW,So Sweet!

okok..

ilove 4thjuly2009 1.00am :))

thats all darlinks.

bubye and takecare!ily!

wat a beautiful life im havink :))

2009-07-01T20:29:00.003+08:00

hello my dear darlinks.
so,alot of things happend.
ill just reflect some of things that i still remmbr..
last thursday,had Student council interview.wah,8 panel of judges sia.
lol.was nervous.and the mos number of times of words used by me is
:INTERACT AND COMMUNICATE.
y eu wan to join?wat do eu think it is about?.
all i used e same reason.haha.but im not looking forward though,
since i alredy hav floorball:))
then,aft dat wen to mit rashid and had lunch.damn fun wenever w him:))
i had alot of paisehS.so clumsy.so,he had match tat day.
wah!!he run like leopard sia.so damn fast.sprint here and ther!
haiyo!hw i wish i cn run like him!

and had my first ever match yesterday.
and yeah,im in the team:))
our opponent was Temasek poly students.
haha.
now i knw how tiring it is,i hav to train myself to sprint more faster
than i am now.
the score was 6-7.
it was a great feeling.but i just hope i can do more better.
i WILL DO my best in floorball:))
thanks mirah,ashley,raymond,shifa,rashid,shafiq,hidayah and leila fer
wishing and supportink me.iloveyou:))

i was really shocked about michael jackson's death.
i didnt expected it.he is my icon.im not saying im a big fan of him,
but i love his songs,his dance moves and his character.he is so gentle and respectful.he entertain people with his songs,
but i dun think he is appreciated by his father.
there is a saying which goes,
how rich eu are,but if dun get happiness frm that sumone,
money cant buy the happiness eu need.
may he rest in peace.he will always be remembered by people frm
allover e world.i'll miss him!

tomorw having sentosa outing.
hope its gonna be really fun!i think it will be!
hehe.
ok then people.
gonna strt sch nxt week!yay!
thats all then dear darlinks.
bubye.tc&ily:))

i have to be strong! :))

2009-06-24T21:30:00.005+08:00

hello my deardear darlinks:))
hows holiday been fer all of eu?
well fer mine,
i think its e 1st time my holiday is filled with activities.
else,my all time best activity i usually do is
:sleep-eat-watch tv-eat-sleep.
hahah
So,
on mon,had floorball training.
and was my lucky day.
had 2 on 2 ,
and i scored!i damn happy okay.
so,tmrw will hav anthr floorball training,and
will be choosing the ones fer team 1and2.
i knw i wont be chosen,cos im still a beginner.
thers still much more fer me to learn.
i've yet to learn e basics,
evrything on my own.
so,tmrw i hav student council interview.
im not prepared.i dun hv my testi w me.
nvm,ill just try me luck:))
so,my bro told me that a PSP GO will be launch this year.
nt sure of the date though.probably late this year.
quite cute!i like e white!

last saturday,met leila n ain.
gosh!how i miss them.hearink their stories,
some made me laugh some made my sad.
dun worry my muffins,eu still have me by your side!
i'll always be ther fer eu,nothng can chnge that fact!

thats all dearies
takecare&ily:)

if today is my last day.

2009-06-20T22:08:00.004+08:00

hello my dear darlinks.
some pictures w my sec sch darlinks.
and when my hair was straight back then.
so,as wat i stated in my previous post,
ill do some confession thingy.
so,
wat if today is my last day to live in this earth?

i will wakeup 12 midnight,and text all my frens in my contact list as shown "im sorry if i ever did any wrong or hurt eu,intentionally\unintentionally.please forgive me.
i will go to mum and dad,give them a hug,and kiss them.i will ask for forgiveness if i ever did something wrong to them,unintentionally\intentionally.i'll say how much i love them,how i much im lucky to be their daughter.and ill misss them.
i will go to my bro,and make fer him tea(cos he loves my tea),since i wun b able to do it anymore,ill kiss his cheeks and ill say how much i love him.and pls takecare of our family.
ill go to both of my sisters,hug her and kiss her,and tell her how much i love them,they are the only precious sisters i have in this world n be good to mum\dad\bro, and make me proud.
ill feed biscuits using my hands to all my cats.and hug them tight and kiss them.ill tell them hw much i love them.
i will use all my money and donate them to the needy.
ill do my prayers.
ill eat some chocolates.
i want choc chip frappe and sushis.
i want my mum to cook my fav ayam masak merah.
i want dad's chocolate moist n fried cheese fingers.
i will meet norain and tell her tat i love her,and to face obstacle w a clear mind.and to tell her e importance of family.and be strong .il always love her.
to leila,i will always love her and ill miss her.she hav to be strong ,a strong sister and head of the family.must achieve wat she always want and excel!
to hidayah,i will tell her that i will always love her,and i hav nvr hate her.though i might be lacking in showing my concern to her,i still care fer her.she's still my soulmate.ill love her and miss her.
to jawaher,though alot of bad things has happned,i still love her.and tell her to takecare of hidayah in my absence.
to my HC darlinks,i am fortunate to have wonderful darlinks like rashid,shafiq,imran,shawal,zinnia,yvonne,tingting,mirah and the others.they nvr fail to make my day each time they're w me.iloveyou all:))
i will confess to my crush about my feelings fer him.and i would love to spent time w him,be his girlfren,and make me e happiest gf on earth untill sunsets.to feel e warmnth being w him.to feel being loved again,for the last time.
after sunsets,i would want all my family members and cats to spent the night w me,in the living room.
but i wont be sleeping.i want to have my last sight of all of them.
ill pray to God that nvr to let sadness upon them.to bless them always:))

i guess thats it.maybe fer nw.idk.
this is wat i will do if today is my last day on earth.
iloveyou and takecare okay.
remember one thing:
do something before its too late.
time wont wait fer eu.

:))

because experience thought me alot.
of who i can trust.
of how i can express myself.
of being patience.
and
to read between the lines.

famished~

2009-06-19T15:39:00.003+08:00

hello my dear darlinks.
so on thurs,actually outink was cancelled
but was resumed last min.
so i just grab any clothes tat was ready to be wore.
cos i had to rush fer e time,as i live furthest.
we had to mit at VIVO.
those who went were
me,zinnia,rashid,shafiq and ashley.
we did have fun:) but i was scared if ash didnt,
cos i didnt knw how to entertain
him.
futhermore,i wasnt feelink quite well the whole day.
actually,planned to watch grab me to hell,
bt since we're too late to book e earliest ticket,
we chose TAKING OF PELHAM 123.
Was a nice,action-packed,and F***-packed movie.
P.S:WHEN I SAY F**** -PACKED,I DO MEAN IT.THEY DO SAY IT MOST OF E TIME,EVRY MIN?
lol.was damn cold in e theatre.!
aft tat,camwhore sessions.and fiq & shid did e nobody dance:)) So cute!
so had to rush to aunts house asap.
aft tat,reach home about 10+.
then was bored to death,i watched DRAG ME TO HELL.
e movie is not as scary as i wat i expected.
only more disgusting.eeww~
so,e movie wasnt as great.
thats all dear darlinks.
stay tuned fer our 2nd class outing.
@ sentosa.
takecare&ily:))

stay tuned for my next post,
cos im gonna confess sumtink i thought of this whole day
the moment i watched nickelback's if today is eur last day
music video:)
sumtimes,when eu are sitting all alone,in a particular spot of eur house,
unexpected thoughts comes to eur mind,
and that made eu think all day long:)
(to fiq,go to my mp3 ,i found eur song lah sey.
the song is after akon be with you.hahah!!senang2,jus click next jer.hahah!)

alalala:))

2009-06-15T21:53:00.006+08:00

heyloo my dear darlinks.
so alot to update.
1st,HC IS THE CHAMPIONS LAH SEY.

LOL.1st fer dog&bone and captain ball
2nd fer dodge ball.
wohoo!!
i was so nervous at 1st,if i cant contribute to team's score.but I DID IT.
YES AH.
JUST LIKE RASHID SAID:
WEN EU PUT EUR MIND TO IT,HALF THE BATTLE IS WON.
WE were like crazy cheerleaders.jumpink here n there.
to yvonne:
GET WELL SOON OKAY DARLINK.IMISSYOU AND ILOVEYOU.
DEAR GOD,PLEASE HELP IN HER RECOVERY:))
i was sadden wen i saw yvonne cry.cos she is a very strong lady.really.
and to see her cry,it must have been EXTREMELY PAINFUL,
cos her feet's bones were dislocated.its was damn swollen.
ily:))
presentation was the best i ever seen.they made it so very e interestink,
with THE PRICE IS RIGHT FEATURES.
haha.
so,
today had floorball at bukit batok.didnt knw how to go ther,
so Rashid accompanied me:))
1-2-3:AWWW.
the never-endink sweet guy.haiyoyo!
i think im getting a hold of floorball.getting better in passing and being in e forward position.
hope to really excel in it:))
may god bless me:))
and my hands are shaking.when i wanna type msg,it shivered!omg!scared siol.
i think my hands got tired frm the floorball trainink!
and i was in the backyard,and i saw this huge cocroach.guess wat i did?
no!
lol.
i screamed,loudly!then i climb on to my backyard's window.omg!
lucky noone outside spotme,else they wud be thinkink "im tryink to be spiderman,eh,spiderwoman".lol.funny lah.
mum made corn custard.the best ever.gonna eat!
so till here then.
tc&&ily:))
live life to e fullest and live it all out!

a quote from local talents:freekzy nutz song: memories

is love a thing to live with? can we survive without it?
maybe its true maybe itz false different people all have different thoughts
wad is love? is it strong? is it pain? will it last long? does it hurt? to be in love?
do we get blessed from the gods above? is it though? to be together?
can u guyz be close forever?
this are all the question to be anwsered before u give an anwser.....